lowest life form

some friends are held higher then others, i guess, i must be the lowest life form of friends.

I'm disappointed. I woke up early to prepare the stuff i wanted to pass to you, thinking that you would most probably not appear. but i still woke up early to prepare the stuff.

I msged to ask when will you be free, thinking that you would most probably be too busy to meet me anyway. but i still msged to ask when will you be free.

God should stop letting you appear before me when I'm thinking of just ignoring you totally...like how i convinced myself to not msg u to ask when you'd be free, and you msged to ask when will i be free.

Somehow, our appointments are not as important ask last min arrangements. Oh well, some friends are just held above others. I really don't know where I stand.

What am I to you? Who am I?

: )