7 weird things about yours truly...

funny. i've been tagged on my FRIEND's tag board to do this. since i'm such a good sport i shall do it to HUMOUR her...haha

1) i'm hairy. like super uber hairy. i have hair on every inch of my body except for my palms and feet. and i always get people asking me if i have indian blood in me. and for the record, no. (i have v long eye lashes too. envy of many girls apparently. wait till you grow some and they keep poking into your eyes then it'll be my turn to laugh)

2) i don't think that skinny girls are cute, pretty or even sexy. call it a fetish if you like. but i really don't fancy a broomstick for a girlfriend.

3) i'm a christian. i don't know why...but somehow when i bring out this fact, people normally stare and ask, "really meh?" guess that qualifies as a weird fact about yours truly.

4) i like to sing to myself. like i'll sing while walking, waiting, sleeping or when i think no one's watching or trying to listen to what i'm singing. i'd be checking 'blind-spots' and checking clear of surroundings while singing.

5) i keep thinking that people's trying to listen to what i'm saying when i'm talking on the phone. it's a weird feeling like i'm frequently under scrutinity. weird for a guy who's always seeking attention. but that's just me i guess?

6) i don't like talking to people who have no dreams, no goals and basically no aim in life. i believe everyone has a purpose to fulfil in this life. and people who haf no goals in life just piss me off somehow. i don't know why, but i just can't communicate with them.

7) i have the urge to seek attention from the people around me. that's why i'd talk loudly, shout stuffs out or even do weird stuff in public. it's a kind of deficiency i guess? i have this feeling that the world's a stage and i'm an actor. i can choose to be just a 'passerby', the lead or a supporting actor. somehow i can't take the role of the 'passerby' for too long.

now you know more about me. i can still go on. but i guess i'll leave the rest of my 'weird habits' till the next time i get a tag like this. cheers.

its the weekends. time to head back to tampinesland. journey to the east...

dreams...

i've forgotten what my dreams were. how can i pursue them if i forget about them?

if i ever get distracted again, slap me back to reality.

life's short. i have no time to waste. 4 years is not a very long time....4 years.

so much to do, so little time. i don't want to regret not fulfilling any of my dreams by the time i die.

just got news that sonny, a flutist from ksws pass away on tuesday night in his sleep after he coughed out blood. so young he was. so passionate about music. so talented. i teared.

today's not a very beautiful day. but at least it's a day that slapped me back to reality. wake up dude. you don't get many chances at life. cherish every breathing moments you have left.

kelvin just told me that he norminated me as the chinese chess team's captain. and i'm joinging the hall production team too. on top of that, i'm helping kelvin out with his publication stuff. life's pretty meaningful as it seems. doing everything that i have interest in. i miss the stage. but i've still got a dream to fulfil.

oh Lord send me another dreamer. and together we'll fulfil our dreams.

i really like people who dare to dream. to me, they are the ones who have an aim in life. and basically i like them because they dare.

do you?

WonDeRs...

i've been wondering for some time now. what's is infactuation? what is love? what is like? what's the difference? who sets them? and how do u know what is it that you feel?

how long does it take to be infactuated with someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second of meeting...

how long does it take to like someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall liking is a feeling. a kind of chemistry that somehow fitted nicely.

how long does it take to love someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall there's such a thing call love at first-sight. and sight happens in an instance.

so time is not a very good measurement of the above three. damn...

so what now?

do you believe in love at first sight? i do....

how about love at second sight? that's a tricky one...i suppose so?

basically i'm a believer of love...like finally again? (as what some of my friends would say) haha...

let me tell you a story about a boy (its short)...
one day, at a crowded place, he met her. never in his life has he ever felt that someone could b so familiar. its like they haf met before. but he couldn't be sure. not even now.

they boarded the same bus. he knows they are heading to the same place. and he thought he saw the girl look back, as if she has seen him before. then again, it might just be his imagination.

for starters, he has never went up to a girl and ask for her name before. he didn't know what gave him the will and power to do so at that time. he went up to her and introduced himself, asking for her name. after that he can't stop looking at her. its as if she's the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. for a very long time he has never felt like this. but he knew that it couldn't mean anything. can it?

he tried to get to know the girl more after that day. it's insane how he couldn't keep her out of his mind. it's like he's going crazy. and he thought, "i must be girl-crazy'. but what is this thing that's pulling his attention to her all the time?

"is she looking over? is she looking over?" wild thoughts ran through his mind. then again, couldn't it just be a simple infactuation? if it were then he will get over it.

"Lord if this is not meant to be, give me a sign. i'd rather face the music now then suffer in turmoil. let it come fast. let Your will be done. amen." and thus was the prayer.

soon girl started to avoid his advances. he doesn't know what went wrong. 'take it slow' were what friends tell him. 'don't scare her' others say. deep inside he is clear. perhaps this is it?

ok...let's just stop here. the story hasn't end yet. maybe there's no need for a conclusion or an ending. but at least it had a beautiful beginning. at least to him, it is.

thanks for the wonderful moments. i never thought i could love again.

FINALLY!

wah lau eh! really fierce sia! been quite some time since i last updated! haha yours truly has lost his password...and i was lazy to reset it. but seeing how bored i was i decided to reset! haha seems like i kinda mixed up the username. blur sotong me :)

anyway, not much to update about my boring life apart from the fact that my block (in my hall at ntu) won alot of recreation games and i was part of 2 teams, chinese and otello. and i was told that i was selected to represent the hall in the inter-hall competition, which they call IH.

just watched <<881>> and i dare say its a damn good movie! everyone who understands hokkien or even a little since there're subtitles. very touching movie...i was holding back my tears till i kena internal injuries haha. i'm a sucker for such touching stuffs. oh well...i'm emo. haha

but seriously, i really want to watch "secrets" by jay chou. but i've already made up my mind to watch it with her and i'm not someone to change my decisions easily. ya, i'm stubborn. but that's because i believe in us...i do. but such things do happen don't they? haha damn! should have known i've yet to recover fully from the previous impact. 3 yrs...why does this wound heal so slow? is it healing at all?

truth be told, i've been quite down lately...i don't know if it because i'm not getting a reply from a particular person. but its that kinda feeling where you know you're gonna reach some kinda pit bottom and there's no brakes to it. you can't change gear either. you're stuck and you're falling...deep deep down. all you can wait for it the break. and you know it's gonna hurt.

i don't know if i'm ready to commit into another relationship. it's been abt 3 yrs now i guess? haha how much time is needed to forget someone? somehow its hard. i never thought i can get out of that shit hole...but now someone else has taken over her place. but than again...is it?

no longer do i look in her direction. no longer do i talk to her. no longer do i wave at her. why the sudden change? are they to protect her? or are they measures to protect myself?

its ok. i'll wait. we'll just expect the worst and hope for the best. especially when its obvious she likes someone now yea?

haha silly yong an...always getting yourself in to shit holes after shit holes. didn't you promise yourself that you'll keep a low profile? didn't you promise yourself that you won't like someone that easily? it was never easy for you to fall for someone. so why now? wake up you idea bro!

this game is not for you! you belong somewhere else. somewhere where words are inferior in the expression of emotions because the best things are left unsaid. music is where you belong to. in music you'll find love. the stage is where you belong. in a place where you can be any character. in a place where you haf everyone's eyes on you and applause as your reward. no son...love is not the place for you. don't you remember? you're cursed! so stop this self pity act and get up again will you? now, even i despise you.

p.s: its a struggle. don't worry. it's just me, myself and i. a pact i made and a promise broken. am i really happy? but why do i think of you when it hurts? now...its just a different person hurting me. haha...or is it jus me?

wake up now...please?

"if there're seasons"。。。这里没有季节， 只有天气。天冷就回来。

went to watch this musical by 'practice theatre' at national library's drama centre -- "if there're seasons" “天冷就回来”。

it's a musical about aspirations and dreams, goals and love. it tells of a story of a young singaporean man named "Ah le" who went to america in search of his dreams and pursue of his dreams in music. he left behind him his childhood sweetheart who, unfortunately, died due to an illness. there in New York, he got to know a few others with similar aspirations in the arts. Ah Qiang, Rose and many others including Uncle Cheng, owner of the pizza shop that they all work for. the musical deals with the complexity of love and relationships between people. between the living and the dead. it tells a story of many stories, revealing the mask of people around us. and what people do to achieve their dreams and how they realise that what they always wanted was, all along, back at home, where love is. throughout the musical, music from Liang Wen Fu, the famous singaporean composer of many unforgettable songs for many famous singers, decorated the whole play. adding not just the original singaporean flavour to the piece, but it touches the hearts of the audience with familiar tunes from yesteryears.

shall not elaborate much on it, but i do strongly recommend it. especially for people who are seeking to be touched once again, by l0ve.

one particular part was my favourite.
ah le: have you ever been in love?
Rose:(silence) do you believe in love at first sight?
(ah le proceeds on and on before he says that he does and Rose leaves the pizza shop>

Rose: (calls ah le on hp) i can answer your question now. Yes i've been in love its was a long time ago. But now i'm starting to get the same feeling back...

and i forgot what went on after that...this part's my favourite not because it's necessarily the best part of the whole musical. but because it simply touched me there, at the special part of my heart, where it was closed. now, i can feel it opening again....

by the way, i'm in NTU already. 2 weeks of studies makes me a dull guy. but i'd say i've already made quite a name fer myself making noises and creating a scene in everything and everywhere i go.

haha...till again! peace out.