突然有个想法。。。
如果我是女生，而爱上我的是‘勇安’（既是本人也）。
我会有什么想法。。。
我会很害怕。
： ）
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
如果。。。
如果能从新度过第一学期，
我一定做你的男友。
能再度过第一学期吗？不能。。。
所以很遗憾的，我不是你的男友。
如果我能瞬间移动，
我一定会到天涯海角陪伴着你。
我能瞬间移动吗？不能。。。
所以我无法到天涯海角陪伴着你。
如果把杯子里的水倒，
出也浇不灭我对你爱的火把。
杯子里的水倒的出吗？能。。。
所以。。。
是的。。。
我爱你。
：）
我一定做你的男友。
能再度过第一学期吗？不能。。。
所以很遗憾的，我不是你的男友。
如果我能瞬间移动，
我一定会到天涯海角陪伴着你。
我能瞬间移动吗？不能。。。
所以我无法到天涯海角陪伴着你。
如果把杯子里的水倒，
出也浇不灭我对你爱的火把。
杯子里的水倒的出吗？能。。。
所以。。。
是的。。。
我爱你。
：）
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Merry Christmas!
我真的真的
很想开心。。。
为何
笑也那么累？
有个朋友说
有时女生要喜欢自己的男生向她们表白
好让自己有机会拒绝他
让自己不那么辛苦。
这点我也知道
但叫我这么快就送上去让你
打我一巴掌
我不甘心
要打的话。。。
你自己过来好了
我一定让你打
只要你问我
我一定老实说：
“是的,我喜欢的就是你。”
但我真的真的
不渴望
任何的
答案
不用对我说
你只当我是
普通朋友
不要说
我早就知道的
事实
如果
这是
事实
我只要你
继续
当我是
普通朋友
我就
心满意足了
真的。。。
答应我
好吗？
对不起
不小心
喜欢你
但喜欢你让我有机会感觉
幸福。
谢谢你。
： ）
很想开心。。。
为何
笑也那么累？
有个朋友说
有时女生要喜欢自己的男生向她们表白
好让自己有机会拒绝他
让自己不那么辛苦。
这点我也知道
但叫我这么快就送上去让你
打我一巴掌
我不甘心
要打的话。。。
你自己过来好了
我一定让你打
只要你问我
我一定老实说：
“是的,我喜欢的就是你。”
但我真的真的
不渴望
任何的
答案
不用对我说
你只当我是
普通朋友
不要说
我早就知道的
事实
如果
这是
事实
我只要你
继续
当我是
普通朋友
我就
心满意足了
真的。。。
答应我
好吗？
对不起
不小心
喜欢你
但喜欢你让我有机会感觉
幸福。
谢谢你。
： ）
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Close to you...
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
真的很喜欢这首歌。唱着它就会想到她。
很想接近她，接近她的心灵。想更了解她。。。
你。。。原意吗？
：）
Friday, December 14, 2007
我喜欢的。。。
我喜欢的
是你说对不起的样子
我喜欢的
是你对我道谢的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我欢笑的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我担忧的样子
我喜欢的
是你坚持己见的样子
我喜欢的
是你开心欢笑的样子
我喜欢的
是你不知所措的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我心痛的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我妒忌的样子
我喜欢的
是你的一切一切
你的热情
你的冷落
你的今天
你的昨天
你的明天
我喜欢的
是你
是你
是你。。。
看了朋友给我的漫画。读到了一个女生在垂死挣扎中对自己深爱多年的好友示爱，道出了自己为男生做出的一切一切。。。她的付出、她的痛、她的感觉我都能体会。想爱却不敢爱、想说但不敢说的矛盾心理让人很挣扎，很烦恼。有时真的想说不管三七二十一，豁出去，拼了命，说就说！但害怕的是后果。。。没胆量面对后果，没信心接受结局。有时还得想想。。。说了又怎么样？我不愿意再伤害另一个人。。。这世界已经很悲哀了，不能让给多一个人因感情之事而烦恼。
有人说说爱是自私的。但我就是不能让自己自私。。。也许就这样默默地喜欢一个人更加幸福吧。有个朋友曾经说过：“能够默默地喜欢一个人也是一种幸福的事。至少不会受伤害。”
好不容易平息的心玄又莫名的被拨动。突然觉得自己很emo哈哈。。。
p.s: 天使，要加油喔！我相信你行的！
：）
是你说对不起的样子
我喜欢的
是你对我道谢的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我欢笑的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我担忧的样子
我喜欢的
是你坚持己见的样子
我喜欢的
是你开心欢笑的样子
我喜欢的
是你不知所措的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我心痛的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我妒忌的样子
我喜欢的
是你的一切一切
你的热情
你的冷落
你的今天
你的昨天
你的明天
我喜欢的
是你
是你
是你。。。
看了朋友给我的漫画。读到了一个女生在垂死挣扎中对自己深爱多年的好友示爱，道出了自己为男生做出的一切一切。。。她的付出、她的痛、她的感觉我都能体会。想爱却不敢爱、想说但不敢说的矛盾心理让人很挣扎，很烦恼。有时真的想说不管三七二十一，豁出去，拼了命，说就说！但害怕的是后果。。。没胆量面对后果，没信心接受结局。有时还得想想。。。说了又怎么样？我不愿意再伤害另一个人。。。这世界已经很悲哀了，不能让给多一个人因感情之事而烦恼。
有人说说爱是自私的。但我就是不能让自己自私。。。也许就这样默默地喜欢一个人更加幸福吧。有个朋友曾经说过：“能够默默地喜欢一个人也是一种幸福的事。至少不会受伤害。”
好不容易平息的心玄又莫名的被拨动。突然觉得自己很emo哈哈。。。
p.s: 天使，要加油喔！我相信你行的！
：）
心。晴
这几天住在宿舍，天不作美都是倾盆大雨。还好有活动、有朋友、有。。。你。让我的生活有所盼望。希望能够有机会和你单独聊天到三更却担心你会想念你的朋友。我不奢望自己能在你心中占据任何特别的位子。。。也许根本就没有什么位子好占据。
有人问我为什么会喜欢你。。。突然我不知如何对应。对你的感觉真的无法解释。
其实我真的真的很希望可以在表演当天看到你，因为我想为你吹奏，想让你一睹我的风采。。。很想成为你的‘英雄’。
我知道你对任何人都一样好，甚至对某些人更加的好。。。我知道对我友善并不代表什么所以我也不带有任何的幻想。
谢谢你让我知道什么是‘只要开心就好’，只要你开心我就开心。因为要你开心所以让你往更幸福的地方去。
：）
有人问我为什么会喜欢你。。。突然我不知如何对应。对你的感觉真的无法解释。
其实我真的真的很希望可以在表演当天看到你，因为我想为你吹奏，想让你一睹我的风采。。。很想成为你的‘英雄’。
我知道你对任何人都一样好，甚至对某些人更加的好。。。我知道对我友善并不代表什么所以我也不带有任何的幻想。
谢谢你让我知道什么是‘只要开心就好’，只要你开心我就开心。因为要你开心所以让你往更幸福的地方去。
：）
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
meaningful post
the following was taken from a friend's blog. heard of the story before and it inspired me.
may the same story inspire you too.
: )
A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to makeit and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil.
In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil,without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me, what do you see?"
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughtersmiled as she tasted its rich aroma.
The daughter then asked, "What doesit mean, mother?"
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
"Which are you?" she asked her daughter.
"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?"
Think of this: Which one are you? Are you like the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do you wilt and become soft and lose strength? Are you like the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with theheat? Did you have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have you become hardened and stiff? Does your shell look the same, but on the inside, are you bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or are you like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water,the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level?How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
"It's easier to build a child than repair an adult."
Hope you all like this. i know i did. : )
may the same story inspire you too.
: )
A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to makeit and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil.
In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil,without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me, what do you see?"
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughtersmiled as she tasted its rich aroma.
The daughter then asked, "What doesit mean, mother?"
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
"Which are you?" she asked her daughter.
"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?"
Think of this: Which one are you? Are you like the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do you wilt and become soft and lose strength? Are you like the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with theheat? Did you have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have you become hardened and stiff? Does your shell look the same, but on the inside, are you bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or are you like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water,the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level?How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
"It's easier to build a child than repair an adult."
Hope you all like this. i know i did. : )
Monday, December 10, 2007
号外！号外！
yours truly will be having a concert on the 23rd of dec!
for those who don't know, it's actually a band concert (as in concert band, symphonic band that kinda band...not those rock bands....i know i v zai but still i can't play the guitar haha).
it will be at nafa auditorium (u noe la tt new building? the one jus next to burglinton square? near simlin one la! u noe rite? ya tt 1...) at 5pm...
we will be playing some christmasy pieces like 'white christmas' and 'christmas carol fantasy' etc....and familiar pieces like 'mary poppins', 'moulin rougue' etc and not forgetting the all-time favourites 'PHANTOM OF THE OPERA'!
tickets are on sales now! all at an affordable rate of 10dollar ONLY! what are you waiting for?! grab one today while stocks last! you may approach any of our ksws members for the tickets! (like if u think u onli noe yong an den ya...get it frm him la! so easy rite? still nid me to teach u meh?).
P.S: for every 7 tix bought there will b a complimentart tix given! such a gd bargain! imagine this...8tix at 10bucks each but now onli at 70bucks!!! u save up to 10bucks fer a splendid concert! everyone still can get a rebate of er....$1.25!!! wah! still waiting fer what?! quick! all our tix are running out...i mean finishing la they dun haf legs but u noe wad i mean ya? haha
for those who don't know, it's actually a band concert (as in concert band, symphonic band that kinda band...not those rock bands....i know i v zai but still i can't play the guitar haha).
it will be at nafa auditorium (u noe la tt new building? the one jus next to burglinton square? near simlin one la! u noe rite? ya tt 1...) at 5pm...
we will be playing some christmasy pieces like 'white christmas' and 'christmas carol fantasy' etc....and familiar pieces like 'mary poppins', 'moulin rougue' etc and not forgetting the all-time favourites 'PHANTOM OF THE OPERA'!
tickets are on sales now! all at an affordable rate of 10dollar ONLY! what are you waiting for?! grab one today while stocks last! you may approach any of our ksws members for the tickets! (like if u think u onli noe yong an den ya...get it frm him la! so easy rite? still nid me to teach u meh?).
P.S: for every 7 tix bought there will b a complimentart tix given! such a gd bargain! imagine this...8tix at 10bucks each but now onli at 70bucks!!! u save up to 10bucks fer a splendid concert! everyone still can get a rebate of er....$1.25!!! wah! still waiting fer what?! quick! all our tix are running out...i mean finishing la they dun haf legs but u noe wad i mean ya? haha
Friday, December 7, 2007
幸福是。。。
几天前写的东东。。。差点儿忘了post上来。
：）
幸福是
在大热天吃着红豆冰
幸福是
在红豆冰内找到attap chee
幸福是
在吃饭时发出问候的短讯
幸福是
问候的短讯的到回应
幸福是
知道爱一个人不是占有
幸福是
在红豆冰找到第二粒attap chee
幸福是
知道另一个人的幸福是什么
幸福是
能够给另一个人幸福
幸福就是。。。
你
：）
：）
幸福是
在大热天吃着红豆冰
幸福是
在红豆冰内找到attap chee
幸福是
在吃饭时发出问候的短讯
幸福是
问候的短讯的到回应
幸福是
知道爱一个人不是占有
幸福是
在红豆冰找到第二粒attap chee
幸福是
知道另一个人的幸福是什么
幸福是
能够给另一个人幸福
幸福就是。。。
你
：）
Thursday, December 6, 2007
绕脑三日
听过“绕梁三日”没想到一句话竟能绕我脑三日。
“有上进心、做任何事都对得起良心。。。”
我是这种人吗？
其实当天我也在想。。。我心仪的对象是怎么样的？
很奇怪吧？原来勇安不知道他喜欢怎么样的女性。
哈哈总觉得可爱的女生是我的致命伤。但可爱归可爱，还得具备其他的特征才能让我心动。
1）有上进心
2）保守
3）谦虚
4）有才华
5）懂得欣赏音乐
6）懂得欣赏艺术
7）独立
8）有自己的社交圈子
应该就只有这些吧。。。
老实说进得了厨房，出得了厅堂的女性也让我心动。
你是这样的人吗？
： ）
“有上进心、做任何事都对得起良心。。。”
我是这种人吗？
其实当天我也在想。。。我心仪的对象是怎么样的？
很奇怪吧？原来勇安不知道他喜欢怎么样的女性。
哈哈总觉得可爱的女生是我的致命伤。但可爱归可爱，还得具备其他的特征才能让我心动。
1）有上进心
2）保守
3）谦虚
4）有才华
5）懂得欣赏音乐
6）懂得欣赏艺术
7）独立
8）有自己的社交圈子
应该就只有这些吧。。。
老实说进得了厨房，出得了厅堂的女性也让我心动。
你是这样的人吗？
： ）
Monday, December 3, 2007
我爱的人.陈小春
我知道故事不会太曲折 我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生 成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择 我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人 谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说“我们”
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声
**********
陪我过没有了她的人生 成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择 我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人 谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说“我们”
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声
**********
不知道为什么听到这首歌。
特别有感觉。
我爱的人，不知道她爱着谁。
但也许是人本性犯贱，总爱往坏的方面想。
其实我很钦佩敢爱敢恨的人。
他们勇于表达不一定会有结果的感情。
现在的我已没有这种勇气了。
也许觉得自己＂玩不起＂了，
累了不想玩了。
人总得定下心来吧。
但感情却又不是数学式，１＋１＝２那么简单。
喜欢的感觉却是从很简单的方式产生的。
一个回眸一笑，
一个无意的问候都可以是导火线。
但爱就是那么的奇妙。
命运也爱弄人。
你喜欢的不一定喜欢你。
喜欢你的又不一定是你的菜。
真可笑。
你想接近的人想远离你，
远离世俗的烦恼而“归隐”。
人生可以不可以简简单单？
爱可以不可以向小时候那么简单？
"i like you, want steady or not?"
多爽快。
长大后的我们
越来越没有冒险精神了。
"no balls?"
haha....looks like it man...
ｐｓ：其实我知道你有读我的部落格。
： ）
特别有感觉。
我爱的人，不知道她爱着谁。
但也许是人本性犯贱，总爱往坏的方面想。
其实我很钦佩敢爱敢恨的人。
他们勇于表达不一定会有结果的感情。
现在的我已没有这种勇气了。
也许觉得自己＂玩不起＂了，
累了不想玩了。
人总得定下心来吧。
但感情却又不是数学式，１＋１＝２那么简单。
喜欢的感觉却是从很简单的方式产生的。
一个回眸一笑，
一个无意的问候都可以是导火线。
但爱就是那么的奇妙。
命运也爱弄人。
你喜欢的不一定喜欢你。
喜欢你的又不一定是你的菜。
真可笑。
你想接近的人想远离你，
远离世俗的烦恼而“归隐”。
人生可以不可以简简单单？
爱可以不可以向小时候那么简单？
"i like you, want steady or not?"
多爽快。
长大后的我们
越来越没有冒险精神了。
"no balls?"
haha....looks like it man...
ｐｓ：其实我知道你有读我的部落格。
： ）
simple life?
ever heard of a simple life?
i'm looking fer it
a heck care attitude, telling people that, i don't really give a shit.
will it really take all my problems away?
i'm sad. but i don't know why.
sadness is contagious and i willingly got infected.
i have a lot to rants.
i have a lot to say but words seem to be a handicap to my feelings.
do you know how much i care?
do you even know what i'm feeling when i stare at the screen and know not what to say?
i have so much to share.
so much to tell.
i want to tell you the past, the present and the future.
i want to share your life.
i want to be part of it,
a major part.
i'm giving myself time.
buying myself some time to know you.
to let you know me.
to know that you can count on me.
that when the day seems dark and hope is gone, i'm still here.
that when the sky crumbles i'll be there to hold it with you.
i will not hold the sky for you
for i know you'll b holding it too.
you are strong,
i know.
you are my superwoman
my source of energy.
no...don't tell me to give up now.
that's not how it's supposed to be.
where there's nothing
there's nothing to give up.
blessed is one who finds love.
happiness fills one
who's love is reciprocated.
i know i am blessed.
happiness is a bonus.
i've long forgotten what true happiness mean.
i'll be here waiting,
like i promised.
and i have promised too,
that i'll b simple
especially with you.
this world is complicated as it it.
we should not make it worse.
but promise me
that when i see you next
you'll be truly happy
from the bottom of you heart
cause when you are,
i am too.
: )
i'm looking fer it
a heck care attitude, telling people that, i don't really give a shit.
will it really take all my problems away?
i'm sad. but i don't know why.
sadness is contagious and i willingly got infected.
i have a lot to rants.
i have a lot to say but words seem to be a handicap to my feelings.
do you know how much i care?
do you even know what i'm feeling when i stare at the screen and know not what to say?
i have so much to share.
so much to tell.
i want to tell you the past, the present and the future.
i want to share your life.
i want to be part of it,
a major part.
i'm giving myself time.
buying myself some time to know you.
to let you know me.
to know that you can count on me.
that when the day seems dark and hope is gone, i'm still here.
that when the sky crumbles i'll be there to hold it with you.
i will not hold the sky for you
for i know you'll b holding it too.
you are strong,
i know.
you are my superwoman
my source of energy.
no...don't tell me to give up now.
that's not how it's supposed to be.
where there's nothing
there's nothing to give up.
blessed is one who finds love.
happiness fills one
who's love is reciprocated.
i know i am blessed.
happiness is a bonus.
i've long forgotten what true happiness mean.
i'll be here waiting,
like i promised.
and i have promised too,
that i'll b simple
especially with you.
this world is complicated as it it.
we should not make it worse.
but promise me
that when i see you next
you'll be truly happy
from the bottom of you heart
cause when you are,
i am too.
: )
Thursday, November 29, 2007
DePrEsSeD...
Ever wondered how powerful the subconscious mind is?
it's 30,000 times stronger then your conscious mind...so when one plays with his own mind for too long, he gets depressed.
I heard that's how suicides happen.
Scary isn't it?
Life's depressing as it is...
听有人说他从不单恋别人。因为自古以来有哪个单恋是有好结果的？
言之有理。
所以我打算不再单恋任何人了。
学习陶渊明和庄子的自然而然。。。
想起我时我在。
忘得我时，
我仍还在。
我不走了。
累了。
就在此等，
等你的出现。
：）
it's 30,000 times stronger then your conscious mind...so when one plays with his own mind for too long, he gets depressed.
I heard that's how suicides happen.
Scary isn't it?
Life's depressing as it is...
听有人说他从不单恋别人。因为自古以来有哪个单恋是有好结果的？
言之有理。
所以我打算不再单恋任何人了。
学习陶渊明和庄子的自然而然。。。
想起我时我在。
忘得我时，
我仍还在。
我不走了。
累了。
就在此等，
等你的出现。
：）
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
沉默
也许是我多心
也许是我没自信
但
只想跟你说
很管用
原来
不用说
也能
拒绝
我
我只想说
我根本
没想过
现在
就有所行动
为何
连未来
你也拒绝了呢？
它可是无辜的
以后
请说
“我现在不喜欢你”
但别
否定了
未来的
可能性
因为我
没说过
“我只有现在才会喜欢你，
但未来可就不喜欢了”
ps：以上纯属虚构。大家千万别多心啊！：）
也许是我没自信
但
只想跟你说
很管用
原来
不用说
也能
拒绝
我
我只想说
我根本
没想过
现在
就有所行动
为何
连未来
你也拒绝了呢？
它可是无辜的
以后
请说
“我现在不喜欢你”
但别
否定了
未来的
可能性
因为我
没说过
“我只有现在才会喜欢你，
但未来可就不喜欢了”
ps：以上纯属虚构。大家千万别多心啊！：）
Sunday, November 25, 2007
底牌
听说写诗的人常常有很多隐藏着的情感。
我的诗虽写得很烂，但听了这话我突然有所感触。泪水夺眶的那一霎那，突然觉得很委屈。
难道写诗的人真的都是有苦难言的？
也许吧？
有些话真的说不出口。
也许是对自己缺乏信心吧。
哈哈是不是很讽刺？
堂堂男子汉还怕没面子吗？
也许是伤过、痛过、怕过，不愿在还未得到肯定之前打开手中的底牌。
留着筹码不敢show hand，担心猜错了对方的底牌，自己就会呜呼哀哉。
在这你猜我想的游戏里是否能出出千？让我知道你的底牌？
我愿意告诉你：“我的底牌就是。。。你。”
我的诗虽写得很烂，但听了这话我突然有所感触。泪水夺眶的那一霎那，突然觉得很委屈。
难道写诗的人真的都是有苦难言的？
也许吧？
有些话真的说不出口。
也许是对自己缺乏信心吧。
哈哈是不是很讽刺？
堂堂男子汉还怕没面子吗？
也许是伤过、痛过、怕过，不愿在还未得到肯定之前打开手中的底牌。
留着筹码不敢show hand，担心猜错了对方的底牌，自己就会呜呼哀哉。
在这你猜我想的游戏里是否能出出千？让我知道你的底牌？
我愿意告诉你：“我的底牌就是。。。你。”
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
QuOtEs...
to roomie:"you know what? your sandals smell like they died a few days ago..."
to everyone:"we are all compasses without a goal. But we are not lost too....we just need to find a map to tell us where to go."
jia you for exams!
i know...i know you have to go. But hurry back home....i miss you so...
:)
Quote of the day: “什么答案都对。惟有深度能决定你的分数。”（勇安 on HC101)
to everyone:"we are all compasses without a goal. But we are not lost too....we just need to find a map to tell us where to go."
jia you for exams!
i know...i know you have to go. But hurry back home....i miss you so...
:)
Quote of the day: “什么答案都对。惟有深度能决定你的分数。”（勇安 on HC101)
Friday, November 16, 2007
第一次。光良
当你看着我
我没有开口已被你猜透
爱是没把握
还是没有符合你的要求
是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲
如果真的选择是我
我鼓起勇气去接受
不知不觉让实现开始闪烁
哦~第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过心不停的颤抖
哦~第一次我牵起你的双手
轻轻放下不知该往哪儿走
那是一起相爱的理由
那是一起死守
哦~第一次吻你深深的酒窝
想要清醒却冲昏了头
哦~第一次你躺在我的胸口
二十四小时没有分开过
那是第一次知道天长地久
是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲
如果真的选择是我
我鼓起勇气去接受
不知不觉让视线开始闪烁
哦~第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过心不停的颤抖
哦~第一次我牵起你的双手
轻轻放下不知该往哪儿走
那是一起相爱的理由......对我
感觉你属于我
感觉你的眼朦
第一次就决定绝不回错
哦~第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过心不停的颤抖
哦~第一次我牵起你的双手
轻轻放下不知该往哪儿走
那是一起相爱的理由
那是一起死守
哦~第一次吻你深深的酒窝
想要清醒却冲昏了头
哦~第一次你躺在我的胸口
二十四小时没有分开过
那是第一次知道天长地久
**********************
我等待着我的第一次。。。对你说“。。。”
：）
我没有开口已被你猜透
爱是没把握
还是没有符合你的要求
是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲
如果真的选择是我
我鼓起勇气去接受
不知不觉让实现开始闪烁
哦~第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过心不停的颤抖
哦~第一次我牵起你的双手
轻轻放下不知该往哪儿走
那是一起相爱的理由
那是一起死守
哦~第一次吻你深深的酒窝
想要清醒却冲昏了头
哦~第一次你躺在我的胸口
二十四小时没有分开过
那是第一次知道天长地久
是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲
如果真的选择是我
我鼓起勇气去接受
不知不觉让视线开始闪烁
哦~第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过心不停的颤抖
哦~第一次我牵起你的双手
轻轻放下不知该往哪儿走
那是一起相爱的理由......对我
感觉你属于我
感觉你的眼朦
第一次就决定绝不回错
哦~第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过心不停的颤抖
哦~第一次我牵起你的双手
轻轻放下不知该往哪儿走
那是一起相爱的理由
那是一起死守
哦~第一次吻你深深的酒窝
想要清醒却冲昏了头
哦~第一次你躺在我的胸口
二十四小时没有分开过
那是第一次知道天长地久
**********************
我等待着我的第一次。。。对你说“。。。”
：）
妒忌
"它一直往上升往上升。。。接着又说：‘只因我为爱而生。’接着长出了龙爪。。。”
本人昨晚在床上昏昏欲睡之际脑袋又不听话自个儿的启动了思想之门。开始想烦人的东西。
有嫉妒的心是否就代表一个人的不成熟？
嫉妒这个什么什么人人对那个什么什么人好一点。
嫉妒这个什么什么人看到那个什么什么人时比看到自己时来得开心、兴奋。
嫉妒这个什么什么人和那个什么什么人比较亲密、brother或bond得更加close。
这是不成熟的表现吗？
这个什么什么人过于possessive over那个什么什么人就是依赖？
这个什么什么人过于protective over那个什么什么人就是太宠他/她/它？
我们何尝不也想有个人宠一宠？依赖？有个可以让我们兴奋、开心、brother-brother的人？
有人疼？ 有人爱？有人。。。
其实一切都是相对、相生相克的。有人疼才有人被疼。但有爱就会有恨、有喜就有悲。
这世界好变态啊！太恐怖了。。。
Thursday, November 15, 2007
你的歌
希望
你
不要在意
在
没得到
你的
同意
把你
写成
我
心中
的歌
知道
言有尽
却
选择了
让
意无穷
对不起
我
无法
说明
我的
感觉
只能
高歌一曲
“爱你在心口难开。。。”
很奇怪，很奇怪。
今天被一个很废的问题烦了一分二十点七五六四秒：
一个人若知道自己不需要一个男/女朋友，为何还会喜欢上另一个人？
很奇怪吧！我为何会想这么废的问题呢？
老实说，我也不知道。
也许潜意识里我的想法是：只有孤单寂寞的人才会找个人来陪，一个可以填补心灵空虚小缝的人。
也许以前的我真的是寂寞难耐吧。如今想一想还真的有点真的是如此。
原来我曾经是那么的颓废。哈哈。。。
如今我不寂寞了。我有一群够我烦恼一整天的猪朋狗友，我有我的汉赋、古诗、浮城陪伴着我。
每天有上不完的会议和training。
有可以有聊不完天的朋友，有一起呐喊高歌的兄弟。
说真的。我真的没有理由说我孤单，更不能说我寂寞。
上帝用亚当的一根肋骨制造了夏娃。给了他一个天生一对的她。
我数了再数（虽然是有点困难）确定了。我只有十三根肋骨。
我的夏娃在那里？
也许冥冥中，人就是寂寞的。因为他们不见了他们体内的一部分。
但我知道，你不需要我的陪伴。环绕着你的是你的许多许多的好朋友。
我要求不多，只要给我一个机会，不拒绝我。给彼此一个机会，从朋友开始。
因为我只是在寻找我肋骨的男人。
：）
你
不要在意
在
没得到
你的
同意
把你
写成
我
心中
的歌
知道
言有尽
却
选择了
让
意无穷
对不起
我
无法
说明
我的
感觉
只能
高歌一曲
“爱你在心口难开。。。”
很奇怪，很奇怪。
今天被一个很废的问题烦了一分二十点七五六四秒：
一个人若知道自己不需要一个男/女朋友，为何还会喜欢上另一个人？
很奇怪吧！我为何会想这么废的问题呢？
老实说，我也不知道。
也许潜意识里我的想法是：只有孤单寂寞的人才会找个人来陪，一个可以填补心灵空虚小缝的人。
也许以前的我真的是寂寞难耐吧。如今想一想还真的有点真的是如此。
原来我曾经是那么的颓废。哈哈。。。
如今我不寂寞了。我有一群够我烦恼一整天的猪朋狗友，我有我的汉赋、古诗、浮城陪伴着我。
每天有上不完的会议和training。
有可以有聊不完天的朋友，有一起呐喊高歌的兄弟。
说真的。我真的没有理由说我孤单，更不能说我寂寞。
上帝用亚当的一根肋骨制造了夏娃。给了他一个天生一对的她。
我数了再数（虽然是有点困难）确定了。我只有十三根肋骨。
我的夏娃在那里？
也许冥冥中，人就是寂寞的。因为他们不见了他们体内的一部分。
但我知道，你不需要我的陪伴。环绕着你的是你的许多许多的好朋友。
我要求不多，只要给我一个机会，不拒绝我。给彼此一个机会，从朋友开始。
因为我只是在寻找我肋骨的男人。
：）
Saturday, November 10, 2007
谈恋爱
我想
化成
一本书。
一本
你
最爱的
书。
这样，
你就会把我
抱在怀里，
带我
到最浪漫的
地方，
就
只有
你我的地方
共渡
只有
你我的世界。
我想要你
了解我，
熟读我，
参透我的历史，
我的由来，
我的去向，
我的一生。
我要
成为
你
喜怒哀乐的
源头。
我要
和你
一同享受
生命的
酸甜苦辣。
我要
你
伤心时
投入
我的怀抱
让我
拭干
你的眼泪，
在你
生气时
成为
你的
出气筒，
在你
开心时
笑容的
记载。
我想
成为你
想恋爱的
那本
书。
：）
化成
一本书。
一本
你
最爱的
书。
这样，
你就会把我
抱在怀里，
带我
到最浪漫的
地方，
就
只有
你我的地方
共渡
只有
你我的世界。
我想要你
了解我，
熟读我，
参透我的历史，
我的由来，
我的去向，
我的一生。
我要
成为
你
喜怒哀乐的
源头。
我要
和你
一同享受
生命的
酸甜苦辣。
我要
你
伤心时
投入
我的怀抱
让我
拭干
你的眼泪，
在你
生气时
成为
你的
出气筒，
在你
开心时
笑容的
记载。
我想
成为你
想恋爱的
那本
书。
：）
哲学家
有人说我
像个
哲学家。
也许是
因为
我
善于
思考吧？
有时
觉得自己
想得
太多
想得多
瞻前顾后
不是坏事吧？
想得太多
钻牛角尖
也不是好事吧？
想
也烦
不想
更烦
也许
就这样
简简单单
的
默默爱着你
就没有烦恼吧？
能看到你的
笑容
胜过生命的
一切一切
我愿
一生
就为了
你的笑容
而活
请成全
我这
小小的
心愿
好吗？
：）
像个
哲学家。
也许是
因为
我
善于
思考吧？
有时
觉得自己
想得
太多
想得多
瞻前顾后
不是坏事吧？
想得太多
钻牛角尖
也不是好事吧？
想
也烦
不想
更烦
也许
就这样
简简单单
的
默默爱着你
就没有烦恼吧？
能看到你的
笑容
胜过生命的
一切一切
我愿
一生
就为了
你的笑容
而活
请成全
我这
小小的
心愿
好吗？
：）
Thursday, November 8, 2007
逃避
总觉得自己很懦弱。
真的。。。
非常的懦弱。
看到你和他。。。我只能在心里感到不爽。
只不过那么小的举动竟会让我看在眼里，让我超不爽。也许是朋友间的胡闹，但我却受了伤。
不知为何，心中非常的痛。而且是一种酸痛的感觉。超不爽。
我尝试告诉自己：她不是你的什么人，你也不是她的什么人。你没权力生什么气，更没权力妒忌。
但我憋了很久。真的很久。
很想离开但却走不开。
我是真的真的很想把蛋糕吃下去。至少不用留在那里。
最后我还是忍住了。
看到你的神情，不知是不是累了。
心中又开始痛了。我的宝贝不开心，我也不开心。
最后，终于可以走了，但我却依依不舍。
又看到了你和他。。。我还是选择了逃避。逃避你和他的世界，因为我不愿让你看到我流泪。
心。。。还痛着。你是否知道？也许你永远也不会懂得我伤有多深。
很想成为你的什么人。很想占有你那么一点点的时间所以选择在车站等你。每天那么一点点的时间我也愿意等。
很想你是我的什么人。让我有权力名正言顺的等你。
但现在，我很没信心。
没信心对你说“爱我”。
我从没后悔没参加FOC，唯有你能让我后悔。后悔没早点认识你。
“近水楼台先得月”哈哈那么一来，我也只能在岸边捞月了。
我没有车。我只有一颗心，却只能载你那么一个人。
也许真命天子就是他吧。去吧！选择了就不后悔，就像我选择了你而不后悔。
只要你开心，我终有一天也会开心的。
现在。。。得习惯一个人的生活。
真的。。。
非常的懦弱。
看到你和他。。。我只能在心里感到不爽。
只不过那么小的举动竟会让我看在眼里，让我超不爽。也许是朋友间的胡闹，但我却受了伤。
不知为何，心中非常的痛。而且是一种酸痛的感觉。超不爽。
我尝试告诉自己：她不是你的什么人，你也不是她的什么人。你没权力生什么气，更没权力妒忌。
但我憋了很久。真的很久。
很想离开但却走不开。
我是真的真的很想把蛋糕吃下去。至少不用留在那里。
最后我还是忍住了。
看到你的神情，不知是不是累了。
心中又开始痛了。我的宝贝不开心，我也不开心。
最后，终于可以走了，但我却依依不舍。
又看到了你和他。。。我还是选择了逃避。逃避你和他的世界，因为我不愿让你看到我流泪。
心。。。还痛着。你是否知道？也许你永远也不会懂得我伤有多深。
很想成为你的什么人。很想占有你那么一点点的时间所以选择在车站等你。每天那么一点点的时间我也愿意等。
很想你是我的什么人。让我有权力名正言顺的等你。
但现在，我很没信心。
没信心对你说“爱我”。
我从没后悔没参加FOC，唯有你能让我后悔。后悔没早点认识你。
“近水楼台先得月”哈哈那么一来，我也只能在岸边捞月了。
我没有车。我只有一颗心，却只能载你那么一个人。
也许真命天子就是他吧。去吧！选择了就不后悔，就像我选择了你而不后悔。
只要你开心，我终有一天也会开心的。
现在。。。得习惯一个人的生活。
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
相遇
那晚
碰不到周公
是否惊讶？
是的
我和他约定
让我
今晚
和你一同
渡过
在田园
悠闲漫步
在空中
乘御飞龙
离开了
所谓
四海
自然
遨游
一同
寻找
我们的
快乐
但
好花 不常开
好景 不常在
破晓
天明
周公
放完了
风筝
回来说
是该回去了
离别依依
依依不舍
你告诉我
梦醒再见
我
犹豫
我
惆怅
梦醒
一切空？
我不敢
面对
但
也答应了
苏醒
迷茫
似梦？
非梦？
我期待
期待
说声
“宝贝。。。
早”
：）
碰不到周公
是否惊讶？
是的
我和他约定
让我
今晚
和你一同
渡过
在田园
悠闲漫步
在空中
乘御飞龙
离开了
所谓
四海
自然
遨游
一同
寻找
我们的
快乐
但
好花 不常开
好景 不常在
破晓
天明
周公
放完了
风筝
回来说
是该回去了
离别依依
依依不舍
你告诉我
梦醒再见
我
犹豫
我
惆怅
梦醒
一切空？
我不敢
面对
但
也答应了
苏醒
迷茫
似梦？
非梦？
我期待
期待
说声
“宝贝。。。
早”
：）
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
很累
我好累
好累
好想睡一睡
想投入你的怀抱
证实你的存在
雨过天晴
以为
会看到
彩虹
但
你却
连同雨景
消失无踪
不知
何去 何从
不想再追了
我好累
好累
好想
好好的
睡一睡
愿在
超脱的梦境
能再次
遇见
雨中的你
这次
我会冒雨
抓紧不放
大声说
“我爱你”
如果必须
有个期限
我会说
“一万年”
好累
好想睡一睡
想投入你的怀抱
证实你的存在
雨过天晴
以为
会看到
彩虹
但
你却
连同雨景
消失无踪
不知
何去 何从
不想再追了
我好累
好累
好想
好好的
睡一睡
愿在
超脱的梦境
能再次
遇见
雨中的你
这次
我会冒雨
抓紧不放
大声说
“我爱你”
如果必须
有个期限
我会说
“一万年”
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
泪雨
我
站在雨中
看着
天空下着
毛毛细雨
天
不做美
心情
也不美
在雨中
看着你
有点
距离
也许
距离就是
美
我站在
雨中
看着你我的爱
若隐若现
我不知道
也不明了
但我想知道
你是否
也深受同感
不用太明显
用手语
告诉我
爱
不爱
好
不好？
泪
流在
心里吗？
雨
让泪
模糊了
脸上
是泪？
是雨？
它像
你我的爱
模糊不清
只有你
能让它
雨过天青
：）
站在雨中
看着
天空下着
毛毛细雨
天
不做美
心情
也不美
在雨中
看着你
有点
距离
也许
距离就是
美
我站在
雨中
看着你我的爱
若隐若现
我不知道
也不明了
但我想知道
你是否
也深受同感
不用太明显
用手语
告诉我
爱
不爱
好
不好？
泪
流在
心里吗？
雨
让泪
模糊了
脸上
是泪？
是雨？
它像
你我的爱
模糊不清
只有你
能让它
雨过天青
：）
Monday, October 29, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
谢谢
今天
一个小精灵在我门口留下了礼物。
写下了很感人的话。
实在感谢你的用心。
感动于心。
认识了六年了。
时光飞逝催人老。
又老了一岁。
但也看到了你的成长。
不用感谢我什么，
因为你曾经也不求回报的帮了我很多很多。
考试要到了。
一定要加油喔！
一起加油吧！
：）
一个小精灵在我门口留下了礼物。
写下了很感人的话。
实在感谢你的用心。
感动于心。
认识了六年了。
时光飞逝催人老。
又老了一岁。
但也看到了你的成长。
不用感谢我什么，
因为你曾经也不求回报的帮了我很多很多。
考试要到了。
一定要加油喔！
一起加油吧！
：）
Friday, October 26, 2007
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
愿望
我有个愿望
就是
一生
就只爱一次
但往往付出的
唤不回梦想
理想也只是
愚昧
空了两年
窗也满了尘
最后选择了
等
以为
从新开始
就会有奇迹
却发现
奇迹
只会在
童话里出现
我的世界
黯淡
我的心也死了
爱
与不爱
也许
不是
我的选择
所以
我选择了
逃
逃离 到
四海 以外
飞天 遁地
寻求 一个
志同道合
的人爱
她
不需要
太美丽
她
不需要
完美的
身躯
她
不需要
每时每刻
配在我身旁
她
不需要
懂得
化妆
她
不需要
依赖着我
她
只要
懂得我的心
她
只要
明白我的情
她
只要
可以陪我
品茶
她
只要
孝顺 父母
疼爱 弟兄
怜悯 世人
爱惜 安仔
我
没什么
要求
我只有个愿望
就是这
一生
就只
深深的
爱
最后一次
从现在
直到
永永远远
这是
我的愿望
：）
就是
一生
就只爱一次
但往往付出的
唤不回梦想
理想也只是
愚昧
空了两年
窗也满了尘
最后选择了
等
以为
从新开始
就会有奇迹
却发现
奇迹
只会在
童话里出现
我的世界
黯淡
我的心也死了
爱
与不爱
也许
不是
我的选择
所以
我选择了
逃
逃离 到
四海 以外
飞天 遁地
寻求 一个
志同道合
的人爱
她
不需要
太美丽
她
不需要
完美的
身躯
她
不需要
每时每刻
配在我身旁
她
不需要
懂得
化妆
她
不需要
依赖着我
她
只要
懂得我的心
她
只要
明白我的情
她
只要
可以陪我
品茶
她
只要
孝顺 父母
疼爱 弟兄
怜悯 世人
爱惜 安仔
我
没什么
要求
我只有个愿望
就是这
一生
就只
深深的
爱
最后一次
从现在
直到
永永远远
这是
我的愿望
：）
Friday, October 19, 2007
感动
今天是感动的一天。
话不多说。
你们知道自己是谁。
实在感激兄弟们的心意，让今年的生日不一样。
谢谢！
*********************************************************
等
一个钟有多长？
有一世纪那么长
我等着你
等了半个世纪
换来了拒绝
等到了吗？
也许吧？
不清楚
。
。
。
今天等了很久很久。已经很久没有等人了。也许是自作自受，也许世一厢情愿。
但等的滋味是种错综复炸的感觉。那种甜蜜，苦酸的感觉在心中乱钻，真不是滋味。
脑海中一直扮演着你看到‘爱心早餐’的喜悦。
真实与虚构往往是相反的。
不用多说，故事的结局是：橙汁在肚中泣，面包在腹中喊冤。
肚子是自己的。
也许是自尊心太强，选择了逃避。逃离伤心的地方。
你问我为何跑的那么快。我说：“上课迟到了。”
对不起我说谎了。实在不忍心在你面前发脾气。
但我也只是气自己的一厢情愿。
真希望是"**情愿”。
话不多说。
你们知道自己是谁。
实在感激兄弟们的心意，让今年的生日不一样。
谢谢！
*********************************************************
等
一个钟有多长？
有一世纪那么长
我等着你
等了半个世纪
换来了拒绝
等到了吗？
也许吧？
不清楚
。
。
。
今天等了很久很久。已经很久没有等人了。也许是自作自受，也许世一厢情愿。
但等的滋味是种错综复炸的感觉。那种甜蜜，苦酸的感觉在心中乱钻，真不是滋味。
脑海中一直扮演着你看到‘爱心早餐’的喜悦。
真实与虚构往往是相反的。
不用多说，故事的结局是：橙汁在肚中泣，面包在腹中喊冤。
肚子是自己的。
也许是自尊心太强，选择了逃避。逃离伤心的地方。
你问我为何跑的那么快。我说：“上课迟到了。”
对不起我说谎了。实在不忍心在你面前发脾气。
但我也只是气自己的一厢情愿。
真希望是"**情愿”。
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
自私
总觉得自己很自私
拥有你一点的关怀
就想得到更多
总觉得自己很自私
希望你的视线范围
就只有我的影子
总觉得自己很自私
占有你一点的时间
就要得到永远
总觉得自己很自私
以为可以得到你的爱
就完全忽略身旁的一切
总觉得自己很自私
梦想你的生命有了我
就没有了烦恼
总觉得自己很自私
渴望在你伤心的时候
就会第一个想到我
总觉得自己很自私
就只想这样
完完全全
轰轰烈烈
的
爱着你
你是否
也会
自私的
就爱我
这么
一个人
拥有你一点的关怀
就想得到更多
总觉得自己很自私
希望你的视线范围
就只有我的影子
总觉得自己很自私
占有你一点的时间
就要得到永远
总觉得自己很自私
以为可以得到你的爱
就完全忽略身旁的一切
总觉得自己很自私
梦想你的生命有了我
就没有了烦恼
总觉得自己很自私
渴望在你伤心的时候
就会第一个想到我
总觉得自己很自私
就只想这样
完完全全
轰轰烈烈
的
爱着你
你是否
也会
自私的
就爱我
这么
一个人
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
作者死亡
我是作者。
今天是我的死期。我不一定有任何的遗憾，也不能说我曾立下了什么壮举。但这么一死我也不甘愿。
在写作时，脑海中有着种种的理想，种种的抱负。自己希望可以通过文字的意境感染读者。希望自己字里行间显现的思想可以传达给诸位。
可是本人万万没有想到，读者的存在却注定了我的死亡。人人必有一死，但我这死也未免太残酷了吧！大家不单完完全全的忽视我之前的宏伟贡献，也彻彻底底抹杀了我创作的题材。
他们把我从伟大的‘作者宝座’推翻下来，还封我为一个平民‘叙事者’。这实在是太可恶了！！！
我的自尊，我的颜面将往哪搁？
也许死亡死对我这作者是个自然定律吧。
不要再侮辱我的作品！你们的判断是错的！你们的分析是不对的！为何你们可以理直气壮地说你们所做作为是文学?难道文学里没有道德吗？你们文人不是常说什么‘文以载道’？若道理不再是道理。。。天理又何在？
文学？什么文学？
在这残酷的现实世界里根本不允许我的存在。我的存在夺取了你们的思想空间。我的生活背景成了你们分析的绊脚石。没了我的存在，你们就可为所欲为了吧！
读者的存在造成作者的死亡。
你我是对立也是互补的。我的死亡是必然。但写作的瘾改不掉。笔，放不下。
看来，死。。。是自找的。
今天是我的死期。我不一定有任何的遗憾，也不能说我曾立下了什么壮举。但这么一死我也不甘愿。
在写作时，脑海中有着种种的理想，种种的抱负。自己希望可以通过文字的意境感染读者。希望自己字里行间显现的思想可以传达给诸位。
可是本人万万没有想到，读者的存在却注定了我的死亡。人人必有一死，但我这死也未免太残酷了吧！大家不单完完全全的忽视我之前的宏伟贡献，也彻彻底底抹杀了我创作的题材。
他们把我从伟大的‘作者宝座’推翻下来，还封我为一个平民‘叙事者’。这实在是太可恶了！！！
我的自尊，我的颜面将往哪搁？
也许死亡死对我这作者是个自然定律吧。
不要再侮辱我的作品！你们的判断是错的！你们的分析是不对的！为何你们可以理直气壮地说你们所做作为是文学?难道文学里没有道德吗？你们文人不是常说什么‘文以载道’？若道理不再是道理。。。天理又何在？
文学？什么文学？
在这残酷的现实世界里根本不允许我的存在。我的存在夺取了你们的思想空间。我的生活背景成了你们分析的绊脚石。没了我的存在，你们就可为所欲为了吧！
读者的存在造成作者的死亡。
你我是对立也是互补的。我的死亡是必然。但写作的瘾改不掉。笔，放不下。
看来，死。。。是自找的。
Sunday, October 7, 2007
《爱是一种病》
感伤弥漫的下午我遇见了你。
看到你哀伤的眼神，
心里莫名的滴下一滴泪。
原来悲伤是会传染的。
当我们眼神决定交流时，
你拒绝了它们的交替。
在这无声的拒绝，
惟有尊严会受伤。
关怀的心换来的
却像针扎在心。
内心说了一句：
‘好痛，好痛。’
原来
感伤的是自己。
我蓝色的感觉，
传
染
了
谁
？
看到你哀伤的眼神，
心里莫名的滴下一滴泪。
原来悲伤是会传染的。
当我们眼神决定交流时，
你拒绝了它们的交替。
在这无声的拒绝，
惟有尊严会受伤。
关怀的心换来的
却像针扎在心。
内心说了一句：
‘好痛，好痛。’
原来
感伤的是自己。
我蓝色的感觉，
传
染
了
谁
？
Thursday, October 4, 2007
笑？
我叫死神多给我一些时间，
好让我爱你多一天。
他给了我时间，
好让我向你道别。
搜寻了很久，
终于在人群中找到了，
你。
我们的视线对上，
你开了口，
好像有话说。
时辰到。
舜间一切结束了。
‘对不起。我爱上了你的朋友。。。’
是命运弄人，
还是
无声的拒绝
不那么痛？
笑？笑不出。
你说笑，我笑。
我说笑，你笑。
你笑，我笑。
笑完了，
悲伤再度涌入。
笑？笑什么？
笑不出。
内心，
真的
笑
不
出
：）
好让我爱你多一天。
他给了我时间，
好让我向你道别。
搜寻了很久，
终于在人群中找到了，
你。
我们的视线对上，
你开了口，
好像有话说。
时辰到。
舜间一切结束了。
‘对不起。我爱上了你的朋友。。。’
是命运弄人，
还是
无声的拒绝
不那么痛？
* * *
笑？笑不出。
你说笑，我笑。
我说笑，你笑。
你笑，我笑。
笑完了，
悲伤再度涌入。
笑？笑什么？
笑不出。
内心，
真的
笑
不
出
：）
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
《小情歌》
听了n遍都不腻。很喜欢这首歌的旋律与歌词。
小情歌，听了真的有恋爱的感觉。
忘了初恋的感觉，也忘了爱另一个人的感觉。
暗恋觉得太累人，追求又很耗时。
人真是矛盾。
爱可以简简单单吗？不要太复杂，就是你爱我，我爱你的那么简单。
不用追求而在追求，不用告诉你你也知道我爱你。
爱你但拒绝你的拒绝，不要拒绝我爱你。
我没办法让你爱我，但不要连我这小小的权力也夺走。
其实你很幸福你知道吗？
你有选择爱我和不爱我的权利，
但我只可以选择爱你
或更爱你。
小情歌，听了真的有恋爱的感觉。
忘了初恋的感觉，也忘了爱另一个人的感觉。
暗恋觉得太累人，追求又很耗时。
人真是矛盾。
爱可以简简单单吗？不要太复杂，就是你爱我，我爱你的那么简单。
不用追求而在追求，不用告诉你你也知道我爱你。
爱你但拒绝你的拒绝，不要拒绝我爱你。
我没办法让你爱我，但不要连我这小小的权力也夺走。
其实你很幸福你知道吗？
你有选择爱我和不爱我的权利，
但我只可以选择爱你
或更爱你。
苏打绿 - 小情歌
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道
就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
笨鸟。。。
某个瓜的msn nick写着：“笨鸟先飞，可是还是飞得比别人还慢”
当然啦！人坐飞机当然飞不过我们啦！再厉害的鸟也飞不过啊！
如果苯鸟先飞，但还是飞得比别的鸟慢，我想鸵鸟一定是智障。
有时自己会不知觉的想：我是鸵鸟吗？
但我真的真的很努力。。。努力的把头钻进地底，希望一切将很快结束，希望抬起头的那一霎那一切将美好如初。
-.-
自欺欺人。果然智障。。。
Monday, October 1, 2007
迷失。。。
不知为何最近有种迷失方向的感觉。
有人跟我说一定会有机会的。所以我决定等。
等多久？我不知道。
值得吗？我不知道。但我相信在一生中有些人是必须等的。等到了就值得。等不到。。。哈哈自叹倒霉吧。
也许有一天真的会等到一个懂得欣赏我的人。
其实我真的认为要欣赏我这种人的确不容易。因为也没什么可以让人欣赏的地方。哈哈！
对了忘了是在谈我迷失的事。。。
看！真的迷失了方向。这种感觉就好像是不知道自己要什么，在追求什么，看到什么，摸到什么，领悟什么。。。只知道自己活着。好像有目标又很像没有目标。
就很像喜欢一个人却又不知道该做什么。追求又觉得不是时候。说喜欢又觉得太快。做朋友又觉得本来就是啊！天啊！真的又迷失了。
其实喜欢一个人。。。不不！应该是单恋就像一根燃烧的蜡烛。自己情不自禁的自焚，但不知道自己能烧多久。烧着烧着，不自觉烧到了极限。剩下的只是灰烬。自己已不再是自己了。
迷失方向的养儿要回家。我的牧羊者在哪儿？领我回家吧。。。
有人跟我说一定会有机会的。所以我决定等。
等多久？我不知道。
值得吗？我不知道。但我相信在一生中有些人是必须等的。等到了就值得。等不到。。。哈哈自叹倒霉吧。
也许有一天真的会等到一个懂得欣赏我的人。
其实我真的认为要欣赏我这种人的确不容易。因为也没什么可以让人欣赏的地方。哈哈！
对了忘了是在谈我迷失的事。。。
看！真的迷失了方向。这种感觉就好像是不知道自己要什么，在追求什么，看到什么，摸到什么，领悟什么。。。只知道自己活着。好像有目标又很像没有目标。
就很像喜欢一个人却又不知道该做什么。追求又觉得不是时候。说喜欢又觉得太快。做朋友又觉得本来就是啊！天啊！真的又迷失了。
其实喜欢一个人。。。不不！应该是单恋就像一根燃烧的蜡烛。自己情不自禁的自焚，但不知道自己能烧多久。烧着烧着，不自觉烧到了极限。剩下的只是灰烬。自己已不再是自己了。
迷失方向的养儿要回家。我的牧羊者在哪儿？领我回家吧。。。
Friday, September 28, 2007
《月光的启示》
“你是月宫中的侨影，
隐约在我视线晃过。
我欲游进窥探，
却恐月光太耀眼，
拒绝了我的存在。。。”
今天是农历八月十五。正是个月圆花好的节日。
每年的中秋节我都会与奶奶一同吃月饼，品茶和赏月。这可说是我们每年不约而同的约定。
“安啊, 今晚有回家和奶奶一起吃月饼吗？”
“有啦！我还陪你喝茶赏月ok？好了我得放下电话了，朋友在等我讨论功课呢！bye！”
奶奶疼我是众所周知的。可以看出她对我是特别的疼爱。以前，当爷爷还健在时，最疼爱的孙就是我了。听说是因我这怪胎还在牙牙学语时，不叫‘爸’‘妈’就学会了叫‘爷爷’。我所知道的‘茶道’与品茶的‘功夫’还是爷爷亲手传授的。
也许是爱屋及乌吧。爷爷去世后，奶奶就接任了‘疼爱’我的责任。
奶奶和爷爷是小学就认识的。当时正好是二战以后，天下太平，祖国重新振作之时。奶奶是土生土长的本地人，也是学校的模范生而爷爷是来自印尼的富家子弟，也是校内出了名的恶霸。爷爷经常因与他人打架而受伤。身为红十字协会的奶奶就经常为他敷伤口，并常常给予改过自新的金玉良言。上了中学，女的到南中就读而男的却进了华中。宛如命运弄人一般，模范生与恶霸成了情侣，开始了梦幻般的爱情之旅。。。
“耀棠，你看！天上没有星星。”
“是月亮太亮了吧？”
就当其他人在讨论月亮是十五时比较亮还是十六的比较圆时，我突然感到寂寞难耐。想必在月宫的嫦娥在这一天也有同感吧。这一刻，我真想把酒对月当歌，乘风归去，却恐琼楼玉宇高处不胜寒。
“十五的月亮，照在家乡照在边关，宁静的夜晚你也思念，我也思念。。。”这是奶奶常唱的歌。我也耳濡目染，学会了几句。
她在唱此歌时的内心世界是在想念谁呢？是爷爷吗？我从没多问也不敢问。我只知道在这月圆时刻我在想念着莫个‘她’。
“我得走了！我奶奶在等我回家和她一同喝茶，吃月饼，赏月！”
就这样，我冲冲的走了，正如我冲冲的来。我挥一挥衣袖，却遮不了月光的耀眼。
我抬头望一望天。月光的耀眼拒绝了星星的存在。
心中又莫名的涌上了寂寞的感觉。真是寂寞难耐啊。
隐约在我视线晃过。
我欲游进窥探，
却恐月光太耀眼，
拒绝了我的存在。。。”
今天是农历八月十五。正是个月圆花好的节日。
每年的中秋节我都会与奶奶一同吃月饼，品茶和赏月。这可说是我们每年不约而同的约定。
“安啊, 今晚有回家和奶奶一起吃月饼吗？”
“有啦！我还陪你喝茶赏月ok？好了我得放下电话了，朋友在等我讨论功课呢！bye！”
奶奶疼我是众所周知的。可以看出她对我是特别的疼爱。以前，当爷爷还健在时，最疼爱的孙就是我了。听说是因我这怪胎还在牙牙学语时，不叫‘爸’‘妈’就学会了叫‘爷爷’。我所知道的‘茶道’与品茶的‘功夫’还是爷爷亲手传授的。
也许是爱屋及乌吧。爷爷去世后，奶奶就接任了‘疼爱’我的责任。
奶奶和爷爷是小学就认识的。当时正好是二战以后，天下太平，祖国重新振作之时。奶奶是土生土长的本地人，也是学校的模范生而爷爷是来自印尼的富家子弟，也是校内出了名的恶霸。爷爷经常因与他人打架而受伤。身为红十字协会的奶奶就经常为他敷伤口，并常常给予改过自新的金玉良言。上了中学，女的到南中就读而男的却进了华中。宛如命运弄人一般，模范生与恶霸成了情侣，开始了梦幻般的爱情之旅。。。
“耀棠，你看！天上没有星星。”
“是月亮太亮了吧？”
就当其他人在讨论月亮是十五时比较亮还是十六的比较圆时，我突然感到寂寞难耐。想必在月宫的嫦娥在这一天也有同感吧。这一刻，我真想把酒对月当歌，乘风归去，却恐琼楼玉宇高处不胜寒。
“十五的月亮，照在家乡照在边关，宁静的夜晚你也思念，我也思念。。。”这是奶奶常唱的歌。我也耳濡目染，学会了几句。
她在唱此歌时的内心世界是在想念谁呢？是爷爷吗？我从没多问也不敢问。我只知道在这月圆时刻我在想念着莫个‘她’。
“我得走了！我奶奶在等我回家和她一同喝茶，吃月饼，赏月！”
就这样，我冲冲的走了，正如我冲冲的来。我挥一挥衣袖，却遮不了月光的耀眼。
我抬头望一望天。月光的耀眼拒绝了星星的存在。
心中又莫名的涌上了寂寞的感觉。真是寂寞难耐啊。
Friday, September 21, 2007
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Monday, September 17, 2007
《无聊两首》
《一》
自古以来谁无屎，
有谁大便不用纸？
如果大便不用纸，
为何会有大便纸？
《二》
闲来无事提支笔，
笔到手来横竖撇。
不费吹费诗成毕，
又回处时闲无聊。
生病了！天啊。。。我的肺快要爆了！救命啊！！！
还是去歇一歇吧。顾特纳伊！
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Friday, September 7, 2007
Of MuScLe SoReS aND SeAsIcKs...
i'm getting lots of sea sick lately. haha.
anyway, yours truly ran with the rep-pillians on wednesday and is still suffering from the aftermath. walking up and down the stairs are really no joke i dare say!
however i'd say we really had lots of fun walking and running only when we encounter bus-stops with people hohoho...i gotta train up my stamina man!
after the much torturous run, we arrived at rafiq's nest and cleaned up. after which we went to the much acclaimed "ah fang" for supper. i'm dead sure i gained more then i lost that fateful night! haha
no pictures to show for now...but rest assure, i'd get it from rafiq soon. else i'd just rip it from his and ke rui's blog. haha
okie! time to head back to tampinesland now!
p.s: ran for the main comm of chinese division for the post of logistics. results not out yet till 1730. oh well. shall update on it later IF i ever get to know about it. special thanks to all who went down to vote today! it was much appreciated! :)
anyway, yours truly ran with the rep-pillians on wednesday and is still suffering from the aftermath. walking up and down the stairs are really no joke i dare say!
however i'd say we really had lots of fun walking and running only when we encounter bus-stops with people hohoho...i gotta train up my stamina man!
after the much torturous run, we arrived at rafiq's nest and cleaned up. after which we went to the much acclaimed "ah fang" for supper. i'm dead sure i gained more then i lost that fateful night! haha
no pictures to show for now...but rest assure, i'd get it from rafiq soon. else i'd just rip it from his and ke rui's blog. haha
okie! time to head back to tampinesland now!
p.s: ran for the main comm of chinese division for the post of logistics. results not out yet till 1730. oh well. shall update on it later IF i ever get to know about it. special thanks to all who went down to vote today! it was much appreciated! :)
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
yawnz....
life's pretty much a bore....i need a life.
help...
on a bright note, yours truly will be going to malaysia for an band exchange with a malaysian high school, guest playing for HCI (high school and college). can't say i'm not excited about it. we never had such a good deal back in NYJC. come to think of it...i've never stepped out of the land with the band. while other schools seem to have all the fun going on trips and exchange programmes with other high school bands in other countries, we were pretty stuck in cosy little red dot.
just today i got to know that we have a 17 yr old malaysian girl in chinese faculty. apparently she skipped a yr in pri and another in high school. i'm like so impressed. and it kinda makes me feel so old. it's funny talking to people and realising that they were your juniors in secondary school and now a fellow freshie. and it's even weirder having seniors who were your junior. and now, a fellow freshie who's like....5 years younger then me. oh well...i might be the oldest guy in the whole year 1 cohort haha. at least i can be pretty sure about that among the guys.
the guys from chinese fac wanna join the production thingy for chinese HSS sub-club. i suppose i'll be going with the flow. feels good to be a team. haha...
ok that's all from me.
just some random stuffs of my boring life.
yawnz...
goodnight world.
help...
on a bright note, yours truly will be going to malaysia for an band exchange with a malaysian high school, guest playing for HCI (high school and college). can't say i'm not excited about it. we never had such a good deal back in NYJC. come to think of it...i've never stepped out of the land with the band. while other schools seem to have all the fun going on trips and exchange programmes with other high school bands in other countries, we were pretty stuck in cosy little red dot.
just today i got to know that we have a 17 yr old malaysian girl in chinese faculty. apparently she skipped a yr in pri and another in high school. i'm like so impressed. and it kinda makes me feel so old. it's funny talking to people and realising that they were your juniors in secondary school and now a fellow freshie. and it's even weirder having seniors who were your junior. and now, a fellow freshie who's like....5 years younger then me. oh well...i might be the oldest guy in the whole year 1 cohort haha. at least i can be pretty sure about that among the guys.
the guys from chinese fac wanna join the production thingy for chinese HSS sub-club. i suppose i'll be going with the flow. feels good to be a team. haha...
ok that's all from me.
just some random stuffs of my boring life.
yawnz...
goodnight world.
Friday, August 31, 2007
7 weird things about yours truly...
funny. i've been tagged on my FRIEND's tag board to do this. since i'm such a good sport i shall do it to HUMOUR her...haha
1) i'm hairy. like super uber hairy. i have hair on every inch of my body except for my palms and feet. and i always get people asking me if i have indian blood in me. and for the record, no. (i have v long eye lashes too. envy of many girls apparently. wait till you grow some and they keep poking into your eyes then it'll be my turn to laugh)
2) i don't think that skinny girls are cute, pretty or even sexy. call it a fetish if you like. but i really don't fancy a broomstick for a girlfriend.
3) i'm a christian. i don't know why...but somehow when i bring out this fact, people normally stare and ask, "really meh?" guess that qualifies as a weird fact about yours truly.
4) i like to sing to myself. like i'll sing while walking, waiting, sleeping or when i think no one's watching or trying to listen to what i'm singing. i'd be checking 'blind-spots' and checking clear of surroundings while singing.
5) i keep thinking that people's trying to listen to what i'm saying when i'm talking on the phone. it's a weird feeling like i'm frequently under scrutinity. weird for a guy who's always seeking attention. but that's just me i guess?
6) i don't like talking to people who have no dreams, no goals and basically no aim in life. i believe everyone has a purpose to fulfil in this life. and people who haf no goals in life just piss me off somehow. i don't know why, but i just can't communicate with them.
7) i have the urge to seek attention from the people around me. that's why i'd talk loudly, shout stuffs out or even do weird stuff in public. it's a kind of deficiency i guess? i have this feeling that the world's a stage and i'm an actor. i can choose to be just a 'passerby', the lead or a supporting actor. somehow i can't take the role of the 'passerby' for too long.
now you know more about me. i can still go on. but i guess i'll leave the rest of my 'weird habits' till the next time i get a tag like this. cheers.
its the weekends. time to head back to tampinesland. journey to the east...
1) i'm hairy. like super uber hairy. i have hair on every inch of my body except for my palms and feet. and i always get people asking me if i have indian blood in me. and for the record, no. (i have v long eye lashes too. envy of many girls apparently. wait till you grow some and they keep poking into your eyes then it'll be my turn to laugh)
2) i don't think that skinny girls are cute, pretty or even sexy. call it a fetish if you like. but i really don't fancy a broomstick for a girlfriend.
3) i'm a christian. i don't know why...but somehow when i bring out this fact, people normally stare and ask, "really meh?" guess that qualifies as a weird fact about yours truly.
4) i like to sing to myself. like i'll sing while walking, waiting, sleeping or when i think no one's watching or trying to listen to what i'm singing. i'd be checking 'blind-spots' and checking clear of surroundings while singing.
5) i keep thinking that people's trying to listen to what i'm saying when i'm talking on the phone. it's a weird feeling like i'm frequently under scrutinity. weird for a guy who's always seeking attention. but that's just me i guess?
6) i don't like talking to people who have no dreams, no goals and basically no aim in life. i believe everyone has a purpose to fulfil in this life. and people who haf no goals in life just piss me off somehow. i don't know why, but i just can't communicate with them.
7) i have the urge to seek attention from the people around me. that's why i'd talk loudly, shout stuffs out or even do weird stuff in public. it's a kind of deficiency i guess? i have this feeling that the world's a stage and i'm an actor. i can choose to be just a 'passerby', the lead or a supporting actor. somehow i can't take the role of the 'passerby' for too long.
now you know more about me. i can still go on. but i guess i'll leave the rest of my 'weird habits' till the next time i get a tag like this. cheers.
its the weekends. time to head back to tampinesland. journey to the east...
Thursday, August 30, 2007
dreams...
i've forgotten what my dreams were. how can i pursue them if i forget about them?
if i ever get distracted again, slap me back to reality.
life's short. i have no time to waste. 4 years is not a very long time....4 years.
so much to do, so little time. i don't want to regret not fulfilling any of my dreams by the time i die.
just got news that sonny, a flutist from ksws pass away on tuesday night in his sleep after he coughed out blood. so young he was. so passionate about music. so talented. i teared.
today's not a very beautiful day. but at least it's a day that slapped me back to reality. wake up dude. you don't get many chances at life. cherish every breathing moments you have left.
kelvin just told me that he norminated me as the chinese chess team's captain. and i'm joinging the hall production team too. on top of that, i'm helping kelvin out with his publication stuff. life's pretty meaningful as it seems. doing everything that i have interest in. i miss the stage. but i've still got a dream to fulfil.
oh Lord send me another dreamer. and together we'll fulfil our dreams.
i really like people who dare to dream. to me, they are the ones who have an aim in life. and basically i like them because they dare.
do you?
if i ever get distracted again, slap me back to reality.
life's short. i have no time to waste. 4 years is not a very long time....4 years.
so much to do, so little time. i don't want to regret not fulfilling any of my dreams by the time i die.
just got news that sonny, a flutist from ksws pass away on tuesday night in his sleep after he coughed out blood. so young he was. so passionate about music. so talented. i teared.
today's not a very beautiful day. but at least it's a day that slapped me back to reality. wake up dude. you don't get many chances at life. cherish every breathing moments you have left.
kelvin just told me that he norminated me as the chinese chess team's captain. and i'm joinging the hall production team too. on top of that, i'm helping kelvin out with his publication stuff. life's pretty meaningful as it seems. doing everything that i have interest in. i miss the stage. but i've still got a dream to fulfil.
oh Lord send me another dreamer. and together we'll fulfil our dreams.
i really like people who dare to dream. to me, they are the ones who have an aim in life. and basically i like them because they dare.
do you?
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
WonDeRs...
i've been wondering for some time now. what's is infactuation? what is love? what is like? what's the difference? who sets them? and how do u know what is it that you feel?
how long does it take to be infactuated with someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second of meeting...
how long does it take to like someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall liking is a feeling. a kind of chemistry that somehow fitted nicely.
how long does it take to love someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall there's such a thing call love at first-sight. and sight happens in an instance.
so time is not a very good measurement of the above three. damn...
so what now?
do you believe in love at first sight? i do....
how about love at second sight? that's a tricky one...i suppose so?
basically i'm a believer of love...like finally again? (as what some of my friends would say) haha...
let me tell you a story about a boy (its short)...
one day, at a crowded place, he met her. never in his life has he ever felt that someone could b so familiar. its like they haf met before. but he couldn't be sure. not even now.
they boarded the same bus. he knows they are heading to the same place. and he thought he saw the girl look back, as if she has seen him before. then again, it might just be his imagination.
for starters, he has never went up to a girl and ask for her name before. he didn't know what gave him the will and power to do so at that time. he went up to her and introduced himself, asking for her name. after that he can't stop looking at her. its as if she's the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. for a very long time he has never felt like this. but he knew that it couldn't mean anything. can it?
he tried to get to know the girl more after that day. it's insane how he couldn't keep her out of his mind. it's like he's going crazy. and he thought, "i must be girl-crazy'. but what is this thing that's pulling his attention to her all the time?
"is she looking over? is she looking over?" wild thoughts ran through his mind. then again, couldn't it just be a simple infactuation? if it were then he will get over it.
"Lord if this is not meant to be, give me a sign. i'd rather face the music now then suffer in turmoil. let it come fast. let Your will be done. amen." and thus was the prayer.
soon girl started to avoid his advances. he doesn't know what went wrong. 'take it slow' were what friends tell him. 'don't scare her' others say. deep inside he is clear. perhaps this is it?
ok...let's just stop here. the story hasn't end yet. maybe there's no need for a conclusion or an ending. but at least it had a beautiful beginning. at least to him, it is.
thanks for the wonderful moments. i never thought i could love again.
how long does it take to be infactuated with someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second of meeting...
how long does it take to like someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall liking is a feeling. a kind of chemistry that somehow fitted nicely.
how long does it take to love someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall there's such a thing call love at first-sight. and sight happens in an instance.
so time is not a very good measurement of the above three. damn...
so what now?
do you believe in love at first sight? i do....
how about love at second sight? that's a tricky one...i suppose so?
basically i'm a believer of love...like finally again? (as what some of my friends would say) haha...
let me tell you a story about a boy (its short)...
one day, at a crowded place, he met her. never in his life has he ever felt that someone could b so familiar. its like they haf met before. but he couldn't be sure. not even now.
they boarded the same bus. he knows they are heading to the same place. and he thought he saw the girl look back, as if she has seen him before. then again, it might just be his imagination.
for starters, he has never went up to a girl and ask for her name before. he didn't know what gave him the will and power to do so at that time. he went up to her and introduced himself, asking for her name. after that he can't stop looking at her. its as if she's the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. for a very long time he has never felt like this. but he knew that it couldn't mean anything. can it?
he tried to get to know the girl more after that day. it's insane how he couldn't keep her out of his mind. it's like he's going crazy. and he thought, "i must be girl-crazy'. but what is this thing that's pulling his attention to her all the time?
"is she looking over? is she looking over?" wild thoughts ran through his mind. then again, couldn't it just be a simple infactuation? if it were then he will get over it.
"Lord if this is not meant to be, give me a sign. i'd rather face the music now then suffer in turmoil. let it come fast. let Your will be done. amen." and thus was the prayer.
soon girl started to avoid his advances. he doesn't know what went wrong. 'take it slow' were what friends tell him. 'don't scare her' others say. deep inside he is clear. perhaps this is it?
ok...let's just stop here. the story hasn't end yet. maybe there's no need for a conclusion or an ending. but at least it had a beautiful beginning. at least to him, it is.
thanks for the wonderful moments. i never thought i could love again.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
FINALLY!
wah lau eh! really fierce sia! been quite some time since i last updated! haha yours truly has lost his password...and i was lazy to reset it. but seeing how bored i was i decided to reset! haha seems like i kinda mixed up the username. blur sotong me :)
anyway, not much to update about my boring life apart from the fact that my block (in my hall at ntu) won alot of recreation games and i was part of 2 teams, chinese and otello. and i was told that i was selected to represent the hall in the inter-hall competition, which they call IH.
just watched <<881>> and i dare say its a damn good movie! everyone who understands hokkien or even a little since there're subtitles. very touching movie...i was holding back my tears till i kena internal injuries haha. i'm a sucker for such touching stuffs. oh well...i'm emo. haha
but seriously, i really want to watch "secrets" by jay chou. but i've already made up my mind to watch it with her and i'm not someone to change my decisions easily. ya, i'm stubborn. but that's because i believe in us...i do. but such things do happen don't they? haha damn! should have known i've yet to recover fully from the previous impact. 3 yrs...why does this wound heal so slow? is it healing at all?
truth be told, i've been quite down lately...i don't know if it because i'm not getting a reply from a particular person. but its that kinda feeling where you know you're gonna reach some kinda pit bottom and there's no brakes to it. you can't change gear either. you're stuck and you're falling...deep deep down. all you can wait for it the break. and you know it's gonna hurt.
i don't know if i'm ready to commit into another relationship. it's been abt 3 yrs now i guess? haha how much time is needed to forget someone? somehow its hard. i never thought i can get out of that shit hole...but now someone else has taken over her place. but than again...is it?
no longer do i look in her direction. no longer do i talk to her. no longer do i wave at her. why the sudden change? are they to protect her? or are they measures to protect myself?
its ok. i'll wait. we'll just expect the worst and hope for the best. especially when its obvious she likes someone now yea?
haha silly yong an...always getting yourself in to shit holes after shit holes. didn't you promise yourself that you'll keep a low profile? didn't you promise yourself that you won't like someone that easily? it was never easy for you to fall for someone. so why now? wake up you idea bro!
this game is not for you! you belong somewhere else. somewhere where words are inferior in the expression of emotions because the best things are left unsaid. music is where you belong to. in music you'll find love. the stage is where you belong. in a place where you can be any character. in a place where you haf everyone's eyes on you and applause as your reward. no son...love is not the place for you. don't you remember? you're cursed! so stop this self pity act and get up again will you? now, even i despise you.
p.s: its a struggle. don't worry. it's just me, myself and i. a pact i made and a promise broken. am i really happy? but why do i think of you when it hurts? now...its just a different person hurting me. haha...or is it jus me?
wake up now...please?
anyway, not much to update about my boring life apart from the fact that my block (in my hall at ntu) won alot of recreation games and i was part of 2 teams, chinese and otello. and i was told that i was selected to represent the hall in the inter-hall competition, which they call IH.
just watched <<881>> and i dare say its a damn good movie! everyone who understands hokkien or even a little since there're subtitles. very touching movie...i was holding back my tears till i kena internal injuries haha. i'm a sucker for such touching stuffs. oh well...i'm emo. haha
but seriously, i really want to watch "secrets" by jay chou. but i've already made up my mind to watch it with her and i'm not someone to change my decisions easily. ya, i'm stubborn. but that's because i believe in us...i do. but such things do happen don't they? haha damn! should have known i've yet to recover fully from the previous impact. 3 yrs...why does this wound heal so slow? is it healing at all?
truth be told, i've been quite down lately...i don't know if it because i'm not getting a reply from a particular person. but its that kinda feeling where you know you're gonna reach some kinda pit bottom and there's no brakes to it. you can't change gear either. you're stuck and you're falling...deep deep down. all you can wait for it the break. and you know it's gonna hurt.
i don't know if i'm ready to commit into another relationship. it's been abt 3 yrs now i guess? haha how much time is needed to forget someone? somehow its hard. i never thought i can get out of that shit hole...but now someone else has taken over her place. but than again...is it?
no longer do i look in her direction. no longer do i talk to her. no longer do i wave at her. why the sudden change? are they to protect her? or are they measures to protect myself?
its ok. i'll wait. we'll just expect the worst and hope for the best. especially when its obvious she likes someone now yea?
haha silly yong an...always getting yourself in to shit holes after shit holes. didn't you promise yourself that you'll keep a low profile? didn't you promise yourself that you won't like someone that easily? it was never easy for you to fall for someone. so why now? wake up you idea bro!
this game is not for you! you belong somewhere else. somewhere where words are inferior in the expression of emotions because the best things are left unsaid. music is where you belong to. in music you'll find love. the stage is where you belong. in a place where you can be any character. in a place where you haf everyone's eyes on you and applause as your reward. no son...love is not the place for you. don't you remember? you're cursed! so stop this self pity act and get up again will you? now, even i despise you.
p.s: its a struggle. don't worry. it's just me, myself and i. a pact i made and a promise broken. am i really happy? but why do i think of you when it hurts? now...its just a different person hurting me. haha...or is it jus me?
wake up now...please?
Saturday, August 18, 2007
"if there're seasons"。。。这里没有季节， 只有天气。天冷就回来。
went to watch this musical by 'practice theatre' at national library's drama centre -- "if there're seasons" “天冷就回来”。
it's a musical about aspirations and dreams, goals and love. it tells of a story of a young singaporean man named "Ah le" who went to america in search of his dreams and pursue of his dreams in music. he left behind him his childhood sweetheart who, unfortunately, died due to an illness. there in New York, he got to know a few others with similar aspirations in the arts. Ah Qiang, Rose and many others including Uncle Cheng, owner of the pizza shop that they all work for. the musical deals with the complexity of love and relationships between people. between the living and the dead. it tells a story of many stories, revealing the mask of people around us. and what people do to achieve their dreams and how they realise that what they always wanted was, all along, back at home, where love is. throughout the musical, music from Liang Wen Fu, the famous singaporean composer of many unforgettable songs for many famous singers, decorated the whole play. adding not just the original singaporean flavour to the piece, but it touches the hearts of the audience with familiar tunes from yesteryears.
shall not elaborate much on it, but i do strongly recommend it. especially for people who are seeking to be touched once again, by l0ve.
one particular part was my favourite.
ah le: have you ever been in love?
Rose:(silence) do you believe in love at first sight?
(ah le proceeds on and on before he says that he does and Rose leaves the pizza shop>
Rose: (calls ah le on hp) i can answer your question now. Yes i've been in love its was a long time ago. But now i'm starting to get the same feeling back...
and i forgot what went on after that...this part's my favourite not because it's necessarily the best part of the whole musical. but because it simply touched me there, at the special part of my heart, where it was closed. now, i can feel it opening again....
by the way, i'm in NTU already. 2 weeks of studies makes me a dull guy. but i'd say i've already made quite a name fer myself making noises and creating a scene in everything and everywhere i go.
haha...till again! peace out.
it's a musical about aspirations and dreams, goals and love. it tells of a story of a young singaporean man named "Ah le" who went to america in search of his dreams and pursue of his dreams in music. he left behind him his childhood sweetheart who, unfortunately, died due to an illness. there in New York, he got to know a few others with similar aspirations in the arts. Ah Qiang, Rose and many others including Uncle Cheng, owner of the pizza shop that they all work for. the musical deals with the complexity of love and relationships between people. between the living and the dead. it tells a story of many stories, revealing the mask of people around us. and what people do to achieve their dreams and how they realise that what they always wanted was, all along, back at home, where love is. throughout the musical, music from Liang Wen Fu, the famous singaporean composer of many unforgettable songs for many famous singers, decorated the whole play. adding not just the original singaporean flavour to the piece, but it touches the hearts of the audience with familiar tunes from yesteryears.
shall not elaborate much on it, but i do strongly recommend it. especially for people who are seeking to be touched once again, by l0ve.
one particular part was my favourite.
ah le: have you ever been in love?
Rose:(silence) do you believe in love at first sight?
(ah le proceeds on and on before he says that he does and Rose leaves the pizza shop>
Rose: (calls ah le on hp) i can answer your question now. Yes i've been in love its was a long time ago. But now i'm starting to get the same feeling back...
and i forgot what went on after that...this part's my favourite not because it's necessarily the best part of the whole musical. but because it simply touched me there, at the special part of my heart, where it was closed. now, i can feel it opening again....
by the way, i'm in NTU already. 2 weeks of studies makes me a dull guy. but i'd say i've already made quite a name fer myself making noises and creating a scene in everything and everywhere i go.
haha...till again! peace out.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
just An EnTry...
just had the sudden urge to blog. ya like some pregnant woman who has certain cravings in the middle of the night...haha just felt i should blog sometime to prove that your truly is still alive and kicking. ta-dah!
anyway, been going for band practice at this community centre at thiong bahru for the past 3 weeks. kim seng's the name and music's the game...ya v lame. though it has just been a short 3 weeks (but of course it just a mere 3 days, or if you really that gek gao then 12 hrs) of band practice and i'm already in love with the band. no, the band doesn't have v fantastic instrument. in fact the instruments kinda sucked haha. but i guess its the people there that makes the whole band practice so interesting, and homely :). i feel that i can grow with this band, and the time and effort i put in will reap something in the end. it's just a weird feeling...a weird kinda liking for the place? haha funny...
and it's truly happy to have people who acknowledge your abilities. people who come up to you and compliment on your sound and you playing. people who appreciates you contributions. it makes you wanna give more back. and you know that you want the band to grow. you want everyone in the band to grow musically, together as one.
and it's good to have people telling you that when you were playing scales almost all the notes were in tune apart from F and A. and people who recognises your abilities though you may still be a noob or rookie to others. looking back, i saw how much i've grown, like seriously. from someone who doesn't even know how to watch the conductor conduct while playing, to someone whom his conductor will use to tune the whole band. no i am not "pro". i just have very good friends who want me to improve. friends who bother to share their vast knowledge in instrumental playing, friends who bothered to teach me and answer my queries about playing techniques. these friends i made in band...i'm really grateful to them.
when i was posted to SAF bands, i thought to myself that i will ord as a better musician. this is the promise i gave myself. i practiced everyday when i'm in camp. course i know this opportunity is hard to come by. i have friends who wanted to get to where i was but they didn't. i must not let them down. what's more? since young i have always loved music. i remember asking my mom for piano/organ lessons. she told me we can't afford it. i only had the chance to join band in JC. but i never really had a proper teacher to guide me. all i had was a guidebook, a technique studies book and a fingering chart. that was all i had when i started learning the euphonium. it was until kelvin (my fellow section mate) came along 1 yr later that i started having someone proper to guide me. but by then it was too late to start out with the basics and my foundation was all screwed up. after my last performance in school, i never thought that i would be playing in another band course i was simply too lousy. and like i told kelvin "i guess, this is the end of my band life." when we were discuss where we will go on from there. for him he already has someone inviting him to play at mus`art. me...i was never noticed by anyone. deemed to be too lousy to be noticed i guess? SAF bands was like THE thing for us then. we wanted to get into SAF bands but i know, ultimately, the rest will stand a higher chance then me. so you can guess how surprised i was when i got into SAF bands as a musician.
that officially marks the beginning of my band life. really. that is the place where i met the other people whom i'd called MUSICIANS. people my age who have already dedicated their life to music. writing music, playing music, living music. there i was exposed to some of the best players of their generations. and everyday, around every corner, you hear music. you make friends with people who will be going around asking people to form a band to play for a particular concert, people forming bands to play for a recording of pieces that he has written and people going around asking people to play brass quintet at the studios. practically everything you do is music. and i loved every second of it. there were talks about music during lunch and even after fall out between members of the SNYO (singapore national youth orchestral) and i'd be listening to them. there are people who loved music so much they bring their instruments down to bunk to practice. some bring their TUBAs along. imagine the fanaticism! i have friends who practice tuning every note 4hrs everyday before the tuner, friends who stick to strict regimes regarding their daily practices from slurs to dynamics to funny techniques. i was basically bathing in music.
from the start i didn't fit in. they were musicians who have a high background in music and instrumental playing. i can't even tune properly. my tone, as they said, sounded tight and not open. during my training wing days, i'm sure i was the only person to have consistently failed my aural tests and exams. and for my practical exams, i can't even play a proper phrase and rhythm right. i can't even differentiate between a crochet and a quaver. life was frustrating. but i told myself it's good life here. i'm stressed course i'm not good. but since i'm here i should make full use of it. i went around asking people for help. i asked people how i can sound like them, how i can improve. and i'm glad, i found friends who were always there to answer my questions and to give my tips and teach me techniques to improve myself. looking back now, i'm truly thankful.
then outside SAF bands i have encouraging friends like chin kee (haha i know you reading don't say i didn't mention you!) and kelvin. who have always been there encouraging me to continue playing in outside bands and getting me back to play for nyjc concerts as alumni and going for concerts outside. i'll always remember the crazy talks i have with kelvin over touring the world with our euphoniums and earning money through busking. and the times when chin kee, kelvin and i went to play fer jjc-hcjc combine concert, noel, in 2003. though i wasn't a good player at all, i was glad to be there. it was the first eye-opener for me, my first venture away from nyjc band. away from a band that only had 13 members at full strength at that time. and it gave me the confidence that i can guest play for another school (or schools if you'd rather have it this way). and it's my experience knowing other bandsmen from outside nyjc band room. this i have to thank chin kee.
then there's the band fanatic friend of mine who's not even a band member! jing xin. the times kelvin, jing xin and me spent in the bandroom during econs lecture were the most memorable times i had in nyjc. we would meet outside the bandroom, promising ourselves that we will revise our maths but end up playing music in the bandroom. kelvin and i will be playing concert pieces and we will, without fail, play "the seventh night of july" a piece that we all loved. and it has since become the theme of this special friendship that three friends have. every year, on the seventh night of july, we will wish each other a "happy seventh night of july".
my life took a change when i decided to join band in 2002 and i have not regret one single day since. five years have passed. five years of exposure to music is not enough. i still thirst for more. there's so much more i can improve on. so much more i have not done. i want to touch people with the music i play. i want to inspire others. i really don't know what life would be like without music.
music. my passion. my love. my life. live it like you mean it.
anyway, been going for band practice at this community centre at thiong bahru for the past 3 weeks. kim seng's the name and music's the game...ya v lame. though it has just been a short 3 weeks (but of course it just a mere 3 days, or if you really that gek gao then 12 hrs) of band practice and i'm already in love with the band. no, the band doesn't have v fantastic instrument. in fact the instruments kinda sucked haha. but i guess its the people there that makes the whole band practice so interesting, and homely :). i feel that i can grow with this band, and the time and effort i put in will reap something in the end. it's just a weird feeling...a weird kinda liking for the place? haha funny...
and it's truly happy to have people who acknowledge your abilities. people who come up to you and compliment on your sound and you playing. people who appreciates you contributions. it makes you wanna give more back. and you know that you want the band to grow. you want everyone in the band to grow musically, together as one.
and it's good to have people telling you that when you were playing scales almost all the notes were in tune apart from F and A. and people who recognises your abilities though you may still be a noob or rookie to others. looking back, i saw how much i've grown, like seriously. from someone who doesn't even know how to watch the conductor conduct while playing, to someone whom his conductor will use to tune the whole band. no i am not "pro". i just have very good friends who want me to improve. friends who bother to share their vast knowledge in instrumental playing, friends who bothered to teach me and answer my queries about playing techniques. these friends i made in band...i'm really grateful to them.
when i was posted to SAF bands, i thought to myself that i will ord as a better musician. this is the promise i gave myself. i practiced everyday when i'm in camp. course i know this opportunity is hard to come by. i have friends who wanted to get to where i was but they didn't. i must not let them down. what's more? since young i have always loved music. i remember asking my mom for piano/organ lessons. she told me we can't afford it. i only had the chance to join band in JC. but i never really had a proper teacher to guide me. all i had was a guidebook, a technique studies book and a fingering chart. that was all i had when i started learning the euphonium. it was until kelvin (my fellow section mate) came along 1 yr later that i started having someone proper to guide me. but by then it was too late to start out with the basics and my foundation was all screwed up. after my last performance in school, i never thought that i would be playing in another band course i was simply too lousy. and like i told kelvin "i guess, this is the end of my band life." when we were discuss where we will go on from there. for him he already has someone inviting him to play at mus`art. me...i was never noticed by anyone. deemed to be too lousy to be noticed i guess? SAF bands was like THE thing for us then. we wanted to get into SAF bands but i know, ultimately, the rest will stand a higher chance then me. so you can guess how surprised i was when i got into SAF bands as a musician.
that officially marks the beginning of my band life. really. that is the place where i met the other people whom i'd called MUSICIANS. people my age who have already dedicated their life to music. writing music, playing music, living music. there i was exposed to some of the best players of their generations. and everyday, around every corner, you hear music. you make friends with people who will be going around asking people to form a band to play for a particular concert, people forming bands to play for a recording of pieces that he has written and people going around asking people to play brass quintet at the studios. practically everything you do is music. and i loved every second of it. there were talks about music during lunch and even after fall out between members of the SNYO (singapore national youth orchestral) and i'd be listening to them. there are people who loved music so much they bring their instruments down to bunk to practice. some bring their TUBAs along. imagine the fanaticism! i have friends who practice tuning every note 4hrs everyday before the tuner, friends who stick to strict regimes regarding their daily practices from slurs to dynamics to funny techniques. i was basically bathing in music.
from the start i didn't fit in. they were musicians who have a high background in music and instrumental playing. i can't even tune properly. my tone, as they said, sounded tight and not open. during my training wing days, i'm sure i was the only person to have consistently failed my aural tests and exams. and for my practical exams, i can't even play a proper phrase and rhythm right. i can't even differentiate between a crochet and a quaver. life was frustrating. but i told myself it's good life here. i'm stressed course i'm not good. but since i'm here i should make full use of it. i went around asking people for help. i asked people how i can sound like them, how i can improve. and i'm glad, i found friends who were always there to answer my questions and to give my tips and teach me techniques to improve myself. looking back now, i'm truly thankful.
then outside SAF bands i have encouraging friends like chin kee (haha i know you reading don't say i didn't mention you!) and kelvin. who have always been there encouraging me to continue playing in outside bands and getting me back to play for nyjc concerts as alumni and going for concerts outside. i'll always remember the crazy talks i have with kelvin over touring the world with our euphoniums and earning money through busking. and the times when chin kee, kelvin and i went to play fer jjc-hcjc combine concert, noel, in 2003. though i wasn't a good player at all, i was glad to be there. it was the first eye-opener for me, my first venture away from nyjc band. away from a band that only had 13 members at full strength at that time. and it gave me the confidence that i can guest play for another school (or schools if you'd rather have it this way). and it's my experience knowing other bandsmen from outside nyjc band room. this i have to thank chin kee.
then there's the band fanatic friend of mine who's not even a band member! jing xin. the times kelvin, jing xin and me spent in the bandroom during econs lecture were the most memorable times i had in nyjc. we would meet outside the bandroom, promising ourselves that we will revise our maths but end up playing music in the bandroom. kelvin and i will be playing concert pieces and we will, without fail, play "the seventh night of july" a piece that we all loved. and it has since become the theme of this special friendship that three friends have. every year, on the seventh night of july, we will wish each other a "happy seventh night of july".
my life took a change when i decided to join band in 2002 and i have not regret one single day since. five years have passed. five years of exposure to music is not enough. i still thirst for more. there's so much more i can improve on. so much more i have not done. i want to touch people with the music i play. i want to inspire others. i really don't know what life would be like without music.
music. my passion. my love. my life. live it like you mean it.
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Sometimes When We Touch
You ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer, still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prize fighter still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you and drag you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you and I know how hard you've tried
I've watch while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters, still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
******
这是我们的主题曲. 你还记得吗?
I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer, still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prize fighter still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you and drag you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you and I know how hard you've tried
I've watch while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters, still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
******
这是我们的主题曲. 你还记得吗?
Monday, July 2, 2007
TuRn BaCk TiMe...
don't you wish you have the ability to turn back time? how many regretful wrongs can we right? i'm pretty sure if we can do that the only organisation to regret will be singapore pools haha...
anyway, back to topic. given a chance, a singular chance to right any wrong of the past, what would you have done right? maybe some would decide to study harder for their PSLE, some would choose a different subject combination while others might just decide to learn a different skill. for me, i'd choose to not send a particular sms that kind of ruined my whole life since 2 years ago. people who are reading this and not know what it means, forget it, its not for you.
if given a wish, i'd wish i'd get up from this nightmare and den go to my hp and send this sms "i jus had a nitemare! it was scary! haha but i'm glad it's all over now...seems like 2yrs worth of nitemare. but nvm tt. haha i love u dar..." then maybe you'd just say i'm crazy always dreaming about such things. haha...i wish. i really wish it's true.
anyway, back to topic. given a chance, a singular chance to right any wrong of the past, what would you have done right? maybe some would decide to study harder for their PSLE, some would choose a different subject combination while others might just decide to learn a different skill. for me, i'd choose to not send a particular sms that kind of ruined my whole life since 2 years ago. people who are reading this and not know what it means, forget it, its not for you.
if given a wish, i'd wish i'd get up from this nightmare and den go to my hp and send this sms "i jus had a nitemare! it was scary! haha but i'm glad it's all over now...seems like 2yrs worth of nitemare. but nvm tt. haha i love u dar..." then maybe you'd just say i'm crazy always dreaming about such things. haha...i wish. i really wish it's true.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Hope
hope is a very beautiful thing.
i believe in one thing: as long as i should breathe. there is hope.
hopefully, i'd see you in my future.
the past doesn't equate the future.
i believe in one thing: as long as i should breathe. there is hope.
hopefully, i'd see you in my future.
the past doesn't equate the future.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Dreams And BuLL...
please don't be "impressed" by me. till the day i accomplish my dreams, all is empty and cheap talk. talk is cheap they say, i don't like it too. i want to inspire people. i want to be a light for others. someone who can tell people of my generation that they have a choice. a choice to choose to be who they want to be, and not be one of the "ordinary". i want to tell people that "look at me! you can be like me too!"
i put myself to a test. i still don't know if i'd pass. but time will judge me.
like how i put my love on the line. time will tell if one is true or not. i guess...time did tell the truth?
haha
i put myself to a test. i still don't know if i'd pass. but time will judge me.
like how i put my love on the line. time will tell if one is true or not. i guess...time did tell the truth?
haha
Thursday, June 21, 2007
珍惜
珍惜身旁的每一样事与物. 珍惜时间, 金钱, 朋友, 时机, 兄弟姐妹, 父母, 公婆....珍惜他/她/它.
不要等到失去了, 没有了, 得不到了才来后悔. 太迟了朋友....太迟了.
不要等到她不再珍惜你的时候才来惋惜. 太迟了.
记得: 珍惜.
不要等到失去了, 没有了, 得不到了才来后悔. 太迟了朋友....太迟了.
不要等到她不再珍惜你的时候才来惋惜. 太迟了.
记得: 珍惜.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Will you...
...wake up one day and find out that the angels have taken you from earth. you thought furiously why have you been taken from your sleep, from your prime of your youth. there's still so much to accomplish in life and yet, here you are --dead and already leading your afterlife. you run to God and shouted, "why Lord? why? have i really reached my limit? i've still so much left to do in my previous life. why did u take me away? why was there no warning prior to this?"
"SILENCE! LISTEN AND YOU'LL UNDERSTAND! I SENT ANGELS TO WARN YOU OF YOUR UNHEALTHY LIFESTYLES. I SENT ANGELS TO TELL YOU PREVENTIVE MEASURES. BUT YOU! YOU AND YOUR IGNORANCE CAUSED YOUR DEATH. BLAME NO ONE BUT YOURSELF FOR NOT HEEDING MY WARNINGS! YOU'VE HAD YOUR CHANCE!"
and you think to yourself, i can't believe it. does He mean...but i thought they were conmen! how would i have known? "no!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"SILENCE! LISTEN AND YOU'LL UNDERSTAND! I SENT ANGELS TO WARN YOU OF YOUR UNHEALTHY LIFESTYLES. I SENT ANGELS TO TELL YOU PREVENTIVE MEASURES. BUT YOU! YOU AND YOUR IGNORANCE CAUSED YOUR DEATH. BLAME NO ONE BUT YOURSELF FOR NOT HEEDING MY WARNINGS! YOU'VE HAD YOUR CHANCE!"
and you think to yourself, i can't believe it. does He mean...but i thought they were conmen! how would i have known? "no!!!!!!!!!!!!"
* * *
don't say i didn't warn you. i came. i did my best. and you turned me away from your elite uncaring face. showed me the door and tell me to stop my sales pitch. i bring forth great wisdom and knowledge that you never knew. i bring forth warnings and prophecies of the future. i told you...yes i did. but did you listen? no!!!! you chose you path to destruction! i don't feel a bit of regret for i have done all i could. you saw money more important than life itself. what more can i say? you spent all your life earning all that money. now you have to spend all that money on medical bills and therapy. how is it worth it? 没有钱万万不能,但钱不是万能的! 牺牲健康也许可以换来财富, 但财富不一定可以换取健康.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
懂得爱...
爱,其实很玄. 也许你认为你懂得爱,其实你一点都不认识它. 不懂装懂只会侮辱了爱的真谛.
爱是神圣不可侵犯的. 就有如"性爱", "做爱" 等其实都是很美妙的行为,但现代都市人把它们给色情化,商业化,更是有辱爱情的定义.
"做爱"是非常浅白易懂的. 它也表示了"爱是必须付出行动的". 但切记!!! 是有了爱才付出的行动. 爱情不是滥爱. 爱是恒久的,不是"一夜情". 因此一个女生的矜持对每一的男人来说都是很重要的. 没有一个男人会不介意自己的老婆是被他人穿过的旧鞋. 但奇怪的是很多男人都想成为每个女生的"启蒙老师",为其"开封". 本人认为这是非常低贱的行为. 大家一同性开放那不就和禽兽没什么两样吗?
我不是圣人,当然也有堕落的时刻. 但我很清楚一点:爱是交心,不是肉体接触. 一个人和你在一起若只为了肌肤之亲,那我劝你早些远离他/她/它. 若你因他/她/它对你的性幻想而觉得自己很有姿色而继续堕落其中,那我只可以以"可悲"来形容了. 两个只为了亲密接触而结合的人在一起其实只是一种负相利用,肉体拨削的情欲发泄. 这叫爱吗?
"我爱你一生一世". 这句话说来容易做来难. 但我要你记住:本少爷若跟你说过这话,我绝不当儿戏! 但我很相信爱会随着时间而进化. 也许我不能以爱人的身份爱你但我能以朋友的身份来爱你. 不能爱你是因许多的原因. 有时原则太多反而让人烦恼. 但我希望在读这则篇章的你能记住我的话:说到做到--对于人生,对于爱情都是如此.
今日是昨日的未来. 今天成就明日,我们的未来从今天开始谱写! 做人要先知先觉--现知道将来要怎么样,为将来而做. 为自己的行为付出责任,对你的明天有所交代.
身旁拥着另一个她的他是不可能忠心,也绝不是一个懂得爱的人. 爱你的人不会每天把爱挂在嘴边. 爱你的人不用听也知道他的爱存在因他已付出了行动来爱你. "真爱无敌"是不变的真谛.
爱, 可以让一切都对了, 但不要滥用它,践踏,蹂躏它. 珍惜真正爱你的人. 用心去细偿他的爱,你不难发现爱情的微妙甜蜜比肉体情欲的满足来的甘甜奇妙.
爱是很玄的. 不要侮辱了它的真谛.
爱是神圣不可侵犯的. 就有如"性爱", "做爱" 等其实都是很美妙的行为,但现代都市人把它们给色情化,商业化,更是有辱爱情的定义.
"做爱"是非常浅白易懂的. 它也表示了"爱是必须付出行动的". 但切记!!! 是有了爱才付出的行动. 爱情不是滥爱. 爱是恒久的,不是"一夜情". 因此一个女生的矜持对每一的男人来说都是很重要的. 没有一个男人会不介意自己的老婆是被他人穿过的旧鞋. 但奇怪的是很多男人都想成为每个女生的"启蒙老师",为其"开封". 本人认为这是非常低贱的行为. 大家一同性开放那不就和禽兽没什么两样吗?
我不是圣人,当然也有堕落的时刻. 但我很清楚一点:爱是交心,不是肉体接触. 一个人和你在一起若只为了肌肤之亲,那我劝你早些远离他/她/它. 若你因他/她/它对你的性幻想而觉得自己很有姿色而继续堕落其中,那我只可以以"可悲"来形容了. 两个只为了亲密接触而结合的人在一起其实只是一种负相利用,肉体拨削的情欲发泄. 这叫爱吗?
"我爱你一生一世". 这句话说来容易做来难. 但我要你记住:本少爷若跟你说过这话,我绝不当儿戏! 但我很相信爱会随着时间而进化. 也许我不能以爱人的身份爱你但我能以朋友的身份来爱你. 不能爱你是因许多的原因. 有时原则太多反而让人烦恼. 但我希望在读这则篇章的你能记住我的话:说到做到--对于人生,对于爱情都是如此.
今日是昨日的未来. 今天成就明日,我们的未来从今天开始谱写! 做人要先知先觉--现知道将来要怎么样,为将来而做. 为自己的行为付出责任,对你的明天有所交代.
身旁拥着另一个她的他是不可能忠心,也绝不是一个懂得爱的人. 爱你的人不会每天把爱挂在嘴边. 爱你的人不用听也知道他的爱存在因他已付出了行动来爱你. "真爱无敌"是不变的真谛.
爱, 可以让一切都对了, 但不要滥用它,践踏,蹂躏它. 珍惜真正爱你的人. 用心去细偿他的爱,你不难发现爱情的微妙甜蜜比肉体情欲的满足来的甘甜奇妙.
爱是很玄的. 不要侮辱了它的真谛.
Friday, June 8, 2007
LeTtEr To U...ArSehO|e...
dear arsehole sng (or affectionately called YY by some. like whatever! -rolls eyes-),
thanks for all the accusations you've threw at me. thanks! really man! can't say i didn't learn a bit of SHIT from you. you have successfully bring "ARSEHOLE" to a whole new level! and gave a whole new meaning to the term "BASTARD". and thanks once again for letting me know and understand what "brotherhood" really mean. :)
i'd like to tell you that if i wanted to i could have sued you for illegal possession of others' properties or simply put -- theft. and also, according to the clause of the "terms and agreement of termination" you were supposed to return all properties, materials, brochures etc owned by the company or bearing the company's information at the point of termination. however, you failed to comply to that clause for like 3 freaking months? and you dare to threaten me? HELLO! wake up and smell the flowers dude! stop acting like a freaking small kid who's always running to hide behind mommy's skirt and cry when someone "bullies" you. stand up for yourself lah! what is this? you think you bring out your mom i scared ar?! come on man! she's neither the buyer nor the seller. so who in the world gave her the rights to speak AT ALL? tell her to shut her trap and listen! yes! LISTEN! if that's the last thing she should do, listen!
if you want a refund, please take a look at the top left hand corner of the invoice. it states "once sold not refundable". you think so easy get back money from others ar?! you think you demand this demand that can already? and please note once again that the sales was and still is under YOUR name MR SNG YY, acct no. 3180. and since you failed to return all properties in your possession, by legal terms, YOU were and still are the salesperson. not your father, your mother or even your great granduncle, yours truly, me! get that into you thick numb skull! get it! it's under YOUR name! and no! i was not there to make the sales, i was there to HELP you! understand?! and yes i was stupid to put "delivery after 3-4 weeks" when i fully know that it will only come after 2 months. though there were rumours of the goods coming in earlier i should have stuck to company policies and NOT give any privilege to anybody no matter if he/she/IT calls me "brother". i admit i am at fault for this and apologise. but i also clearly remember telling your uncle that by right it should only arrive 2 months later. don't bastard me and say it's not true. this was the practice then. and you fully know about it. so what is it about the goods not delivered on time? oh ya! i shot myself in the leg stupid me. stupid enough to want to fight for you to get to use it faster right? thanks again! i learnt not to bastard myself. :D
and yes, accusing me of bringing an old, used good for you. oh man! that's like the ultimate! why don't you ask how many people i've approached for a new one? and yes! i do have an old one prepared and ready to bastard you with. but did i? no i didn't and very obviously, old or new, you smell also know already. see also can tell. i could tell the difference so i gave up the bastardy act. and i took it as my responsibility when the goods are gonna be delayed since they'll only arrive in singapore on the friday itself. but at the same time i still have people i'm waiting for an answer for release of goods to me. and yes on friday itself someone brought one for me and, by right, it should have been at a right timing. but did you mom listen? no! she thinks she's "oh-so-smart" mouth rattering on and on like a machine gun. pity though. she's has such beauty but then again she proved that inner beauty is still one that i sought after. thanks to her, i've learnt a valuable lesson too! :P
and oh ya! regarding the money. sorry dude you won't be the one getting it. i'd send it to your uncle via mail. but you won't see me in office today. asking you down is just to bastard you that's all! haha...and yes. i do believe you have a bedpad at home...you mean to say it wasn't delievered? explain yourself then. i can bastard you if i want to. take note! arsehole! dun assume everything and everyone is against you. you will think that others are bastard-ing you course that's exactly what you would do if given a chance. you speculate people's thinkings and moves according to what you'd have done exactly. so i can see how much of a bastard you are already. and i kept giving excuses on you behalf like "i don't believe he is like this. might be the mom kaypoh, don't know anything then want to talk so much..." sorry if i blamed your mom. fact is, she doesn't know a single shit and still talk so much! to me only ignorant people will do such thing. and she refuse to listen to explanations. need i say more?
to end it all, i really want you to disappear from my life permanently, like you know what "forever" means? ya, that's what i mean. get lost and disappear. period.
yours sincerely,
Mr Nice Guy. :)
thanks for all the accusations you've threw at me. thanks! really man! can't say i didn't learn a bit of SHIT from you. you have successfully bring "ARSEHOLE" to a whole new level! and gave a whole new meaning to the term "BASTARD". and thanks once again for letting me know and understand what "brotherhood" really mean. :)
i'd like to tell you that if i wanted to i could have sued you for illegal possession of others' properties or simply put -- theft. and also, according to the clause of the "terms and agreement of termination" you were supposed to return all properties, materials, brochures etc owned by the company or bearing the company's information at the point of termination. however, you failed to comply to that clause for like 3 freaking months? and you dare to threaten me? HELLO! wake up and smell the flowers dude! stop acting like a freaking small kid who's always running to hide behind mommy's skirt and cry when someone "bullies" you. stand up for yourself lah! what is this? you think you bring out your mom i scared ar?! come on man! she's neither the buyer nor the seller. so who in the world gave her the rights to speak AT ALL? tell her to shut her trap and listen! yes! LISTEN! if that's the last thing she should do, listen!
if you want a refund, please take a look at the top left hand corner of the invoice. it states "once sold not refundable". you think so easy get back money from others ar?! you think you demand this demand that can already? and please note once again that the sales was and still is under YOUR name MR SNG YY, acct no. 3180. and since you failed to return all properties in your possession, by legal terms, YOU were and still are the salesperson. not your father, your mother or even your great granduncle, yours truly, me! get that into you thick numb skull! get it! it's under YOUR name! and no! i was not there to make the sales, i was there to HELP you! understand?! and yes i was stupid to put "delivery after 3-4 weeks" when i fully know that it will only come after 2 months. though there were rumours of the goods coming in earlier i should have stuck to company policies and NOT give any privilege to anybody no matter if he/she/IT calls me "brother". i admit i am at fault for this and apologise. but i also clearly remember telling your uncle that by right it should only arrive 2 months later. don't bastard me and say it's not true. this was the practice then. and you fully know about it. so what is it about the goods not delivered on time? oh ya! i shot myself in the leg stupid me. stupid enough to want to fight for you to get to use it faster right? thanks again! i learnt not to bastard myself. :D
and yes, accusing me of bringing an old, used good for you. oh man! that's like the ultimate! why don't you ask how many people i've approached for a new one? and yes! i do have an old one prepared and ready to bastard you with. but did i? no i didn't and very obviously, old or new, you smell also know already. see also can tell. i could tell the difference so i gave up the bastardy act. and i took it as my responsibility when the goods are gonna be delayed since they'll only arrive in singapore on the friday itself. but at the same time i still have people i'm waiting for an answer for release of goods to me. and yes on friday itself someone brought one for me and, by right, it should have been at a right timing. but did you mom listen? no! she thinks she's "oh-so-smart" mouth rattering on and on like a machine gun. pity though. she's has such beauty but then again she proved that inner beauty is still one that i sought after. thanks to her, i've learnt a valuable lesson too! :P
and oh ya! regarding the money. sorry dude you won't be the one getting it. i'd send it to your uncle via mail. but you won't see me in office today. asking you down is just to bastard you that's all! haha...and yes. i do believe you have a bedpad at home...you mean to say it wasn't delievered? explain yourself then. i can bastard you if i want to. take note! arsehole! dun assume everything and everyone is against you. you will think that others are bastard-ing you course that's exactly what you would do if given a chance. you speculate people's thinkings and moves according to what you'd have done exactly. so i can see how much of a bastard you are already. and i kept giving excuses on you behalf like "i don't believe he is like this. might be the mom kaypoh, don't know anything then want to talk so much..." sorry if i blamed your mom. fact is, she doesn't know a single shit and still talk so much! to me only ignorant people will do such thing. and she refuse to listen to explanations. need i say more?
to end it all, i really want you to disappear from my life permanently, like you know what "forever" means? ya, that's what i mean. get lost and disappear. period.
yours sincerely,
Mr Nice Guy. :)
Friday, June 1, 2007
i'm most richly blessed
Most richly blessed.
Sometimes i wonder when things go so wrong,
Has God forsaken and left me alone?
Then i remember through trials and distress
He's always there for me,
I'm most richly blessed.
I asked God for strength, that i might achieve.
I was made weak, that i might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health, that i might do greater things,
I was given infirmity, that i might do better things.
I asked for riches, that i might be happy,
I was given poverty, that i might be wise.
I asked for power, that i might have the praise of men,
I was given weakness, that i might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things, that i might enjoy life,
That i had hoped for, and almost despite myself,
My unspoken prayers were answered.
He's always there for me,
I'm most richly blessed.
amen.
Sometimes i wonder when things go so wrong,
Has God forsaken and left me alone?
Then i remember through trials and distress
He's always there for me,
I'm most richly blessed.
I asked God for strength, that i might achieve.
I was made weak, that i might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health, that i might do greater things,
I was given infirmity, that i might do better things.
I asked for riches, that i might be happy,
I was given poverty, that i might be wise.
I asked for power, that i might have the praise of men,
I was given weakness, that i might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things, that i might enjoy life,
That i had hoped for, and almost despite myself,
My unspoken prayers were answered.
He's always there for me,
I'm most richly blessed.
amen.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
AnGeLs...
they say angels take up different forms on earth and bless your life when you least expected it. i guess i was touched by one.
it's funny how i've actually got a friend whom i don't talk to face to face. ok we talked face to face before and it was for like less then 5 mins? somehow i like it when i have a friend who's not so close and yet close enough for me to share my problems, rant endlessly and reply a silly nonsensical sms. of course the replies don't come "free flow", but it's enough for me to be "less lonely" already.
here, i would like to really thank you! if you think it's you, it's you. i shall name you "sunny" for you bring sunlight to my darkest days and remind me of hope and optimism during times of dejection. i found more then a friend in you. i found an angel.
hope this friendship stays this way. like i said "it's good to have a friend who's not so close but yet close enough to know my problems." thanks, ms kang, you're truly an angel.
it's funny how i've actually got a friend whom i don't talk to face to face. ok we talked face to face before and it was for like less then 5 mins? somehow i like it when i have a friend who's not so close and yet close enough for me to share my problems, rant endlessly and reply a silly nonsensical sms. of course the replies don't come "free flow", but it's enough for me to be "less lonely" already.
here, i would like to really thank you! if you think it's you, it's you. i shall name you "sunny" for you bring sunlight to my darkest days and remind me of hope and optimism during times of dejection. i found more then a friend in you. i found an angel.
hope this friendship stays this way. like i said "it's good to have a friend who's not so close but yet close enough to know my problems." thanks, ms kang, you're truly an angel.
Friday, May 18, 2007
I aM uNhApPiE...
i know deep down that i'm not happy. i don't know how to be happy.
i don't know how to say it. but i'm not happy.
i don't know....i really don't...
i don't know how to say it. but i'm not happy.
i don't know....i really don't...
Sunday, May 13, 2007
为何而写...
"我只会写下不开心的事情因为我把它写出来, 它就算是被抛出脑外了. 因此我的部落格是没有开心的事件的..."
今天我有有所领悟了...
对了! 哈哈分享一件有取的东西:
领悟=哦!
顿悟=哎呀!
因此两者都不会改变任何局势.
觉悟=*把做好它*
唯有付出行动的做才会有所进步.
今天我有有所领悟了...
对了! 哈哈分享一件有取的东西:
领悟=哦!
顿悟=哎呀!
因此两者都不会改变任何局势.
觉悟=*把做好它*
唯有付出行动的做才会有所进步.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
爱的教育
大人们常说我们这些年轻人都不懂得什么是"爱".
"废话! 爱很难了解吗? 爱不就是一种感觉吗? 我对你有ｆｅｅｌ你对我有ｆｅｅｌ, 再加上一点化学作用...那不就是爱吗?"
哈哈! 这正是本少爷一直以来的理解. 到了今天我才知道自己太自作聪明了. 爱原来一点都不如我所想象的. 爱一个人一点都不简单.
相信大伙都认为爱其实是一种感觉吧? 其实爱不是挂在嘴边每时每刻说"我爱你"就是爱. 当然,爱分为很多不同的等级与阶层. 当它们都有共同点. 爱是得负出行动的! 是你所给予与做的.
近期小弟我也有所领悟. "我要给予我未来的她一个怎么样的未来? 她现在可能还没出现, 但当她出现时,我要可以给她什么? 我不要一个女孩跟着我一起受苦." 很多人问:"说不能与你同甘共苦的人你要吗?"
的确,若能找到那么完美的她我也无所谓. 但爱始终是"只对自己有要求而不对他人有要求" 啊. 我只要知道自己要的是什么, 要给的有是什么就好了. 她还没出现就对她有所要求...这吗...太自私了吧?
现在的我们太习惯对自己好而对他人有要求. 所以社会开始出现许多的问题, 许多的不满. 我们不满于眼前却不愿付出行动去改进. 社会教会了我们怎么去推卸责任, 怎么成为思想成功者, 行动失败者. 有多少人真正知道自己追求的是什么? 难道人活在这世上就为了一天三餐, 朝九晚五只为打工, 等吃等睡等死? 我们的使命又是什么?
对不起我转移了话题. 呵呵! 太激动了. 无论如何,最后我要说的是: 对别人有承诺只会给予他人信心. 对自己有承诺才会长长久久. 对爱也是如此.
"废话! 爱很难了解吗? 爱不就是一种感觉吗? 我对你有ｆｅｅｌ你对我有ｆｅｅｌ, 再加上一点化学作用...那不就是爱吗?"
哈哈! 这正是本少爷一直以来的理解. 到了今天我才知道自己太自作聪明了. 爱原来一点都不如我所想象的. 爱一个人一点都不简单.
相信大伙都认为爱其实是一种感觉吧? 其实爱不是挂在嘴边每时每刻说"我爱你"就是爱. 当然,爱分为很多不同的等级与阶层. 当它们都有共同点. 爱是得负出行动的! 是你所给予与做的.
近期小弟我也有所领悟. "我要给予我未来的她一个怎么样的未来? 她现在可能还没出现, 但当她出现时,我要可以给她什么? 我不要一个女孩跟着我一起受苦." 很多人问:"说不能与你同甘共苦的人你要吗?"
的确,若能找到那么完美的她我也无所谓. 但爱始终是"只对自己有要求而不对他人有要求" 啊. 我只要知道自己要的是什么, 要给的有是什么就好了. 她还没出现就对她有所要求...这吗...太自私了吧?
现在的我们太习惯对自己好而对他人有要求. 所以社会开始出现许多的问题, 许多的不满. 我们不满于眼前却不愿付出行动去改进. 社会教会了我们怎么去推卸责任, 怎么成为思想成功者, 行动失败者. 有多少人真正知道自己追求的是什么? 难道人活在这世上就为了一天三餐, 朝九晚五只为打工, 等吃等睡等死? 我们的使命又是什么?
对不起我转移了话题. 呵呵! 太激动了. 无论如何,最后我要说的是: 对别人有承诺只会给予他人信心. 对自己有承诺才会长长久久. 对爱也是如此.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
金钱与健康
健康与财富哪一个重要呢? 笨蛋! 当然是两个都重要啦!但是人往往不了解健康的重要性...
有一天, 我到山上去散步碰到了一位智者. 他坐在盘石,愁眉不展的, 似乎有些百思不解. 好奇的我便上前问个究竟.
"咳! 人有时候非常善用理智,有时候却非常不明智.而且往往在小的方面明智而在大的方面迷失了理智."
"对! 他们健康的时候,不知道珍惜,往往牺牲健康来换取财富,然后又牺牲财富来换取健康."
智者点了点又说:"他们对于未来充满焦虑,但却往往忽略现在,结果既没有生活在现在,又没有生活在未来之中. 他们活着的时候好象永远不会死去,但死去以后又好象从没活过. 还说人生如梦."
接着又说道:"年轻人, 记住我的话. 牺牲健康有时候能换来财富,但牺牲财富却不一定能还来健康.?
说毕, 智者就与我告了别, 一头撞向巨石当场毙命.
我耸了耸肩, 说了一声:"白痴."
上路喽!
有一天, 我到山上去散步碰到了一位智者. 他坐在盘石,愁眉不展的, 似乎有些百思不解. 好奇的我便上前问个究竟.
"咳! 人有时候非常善用理智,有时候却非常不明智.而且往往在小的方面明智而在大的方面迷失了理智."
"对! 他们健康的时候,不知道珍惜,往往牺牲健康来换取财富,然后又牺牲财富来换取健康."
智者点了点又说:"他们对于未来充满焦虑,但却往往忽略现在,结果既没有生活在现在,又没有生活在未来之中. 他们活着的时候好象永远不会死去,但死去以后又好象从没活过. 还说人生如梦."
接着又说道:"年轻人, 记住我的话. 牺牲健康有时候能换来财富,但牺牲财富却不一定能还来健康.?
说毕, 智者就与我告了别, 一头撞向巨石当场毙命.
我耸了耸肩, 说了一声:"白痴."
上路喽!
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
I'm BaCk!!!!
hohoho...back to spore at 2am. i dare say it was a great trip. shall not say much, but simply this "不做就不做. 要做就做到最好. just do it!"
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Hao Nan Ren...
she called me a "hao3 nan2 ren2" (loosely translated as 'a good man').
but they say "nan2 ren2 bu4 huai4, nv3 ren2 bu4 ai4" (translated as "if a guy is not naughty/bad he won't be able to win the heart of the girl")
i'm so damned...
nevertheless, when i'm successful. i'll come and win your heart.
will you wait for me?
but they say "nan2 ren2 bu4 huai4, nv3 ren2 bu4 ai4" (translated as "if a guy is not naughty/bad he won't be able to win the heart of the girl")
i'm so damned...
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
nevertheless, when i'm successful. i'll come and win your heart.
will you wait for me?
Monday, April 23, 2007
等...
什么是等? 你等过吗? 知道等的感觉吗? 甜蜜,焦急还是忧虑?
等,是一件非常累人的事. 有的人等待机会,有的人等待新的一天,有的人只在等待死亡. 相信等过的人都不喜欢等待的兹味.
用了大好年华就只等待着那么一个她的出现. 如今这等待就有如等待着奇迹的出现. 人生如戏,戏如人生. 有的人等待得到成果,有的人却痴痴的"等到花儿也谢了"也没等到. 就连花儿开了,谢了好几次他也等不到.
等,也因人而异. 有的人等因为无可奈何,有的人等却不是注重结果而是注重过程.无论如何,"等待"给予的是一种希望,一种推动力.一种可以让一个人力量的能量,让人有活下去的意志力.往往等待的人虽然知道结果不一定如愿以偿但自己始终愿意让自己相信剧情会有转折的一幕.
我相信奇迹,也等待奇迹的出现. 我等,不是因为我笨,而是因为我是真的用了心.
盼望着,等待着.也许明天会有奇迹的出现. 你愿意相信吗?
等,是一件非常累人的事. 有的人等待机会,有的人等待新的一天,有的人只在等待死亡. 相信等过的人都不喜欢等待的兹味.
用了大好年华就只等待着那么一个她的出现. 如今这等待就有如等待着奇迹的出现. 人生如戏,戏如人生. 有的人等待得到成果,有的人却痴痴的"等到花儿也谢了"也没等到. 就连花儿开了,谢了好几次他也等不到.
等,也因人而异. 有的人等因为无可奈何,有的人等却不是注重结果而是注重过程.无论如何,"等待"给予的是一种希望,一种推动力.一种可以让一个人力量的能量,让人有活下去的意志力.往往等待的人虽然知道结果不一定如愿以偿但自己始终愿意让自己相信剧情会有转折的一幕.
我相信奇迹,也等待奇迹的出现. 我等,不是因为我笨,而是因为我是真的用了心.
盼望着,等待着.也许明天会有奇迹的出现. 你愿意相信吗?
Sunday, April 22, 2007
WELL DONE, BRO!
alrighty! haha guess what? i managed to persuade boss to extend the dateline for the 100k car incentive till the 21st...and after a long night at sengkang. we finally achieved our goals!!! whee! it's really true that in order to succeed you need to have solutions. and problems will only kill you. i really have to hand it to me to think of such a brilliant solution to solve the problem within a day. muahahaha! you do have to admit that anzai is really damn zai! haha i'm feeling so light after i achieved my mission. i've been so down recently and now, i've finally found my way back to the top! it's time to fight fight fight! but one thing's for sure...i still don't know where my money's gonna come from. think i'll just leave it to God. Thanks o'mighty Lord and holy heavenly Father! now i know what it means to leave it in ur hands and that you're will and not mine be done.
life is good...hee~
life is good...hee~
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Weak...
i feel so weak! like i can hardly move a muscle...let alone move my brain.
i let a chance to achieve 2 cars with 50k less effort then previously go. i must have been stupid. i need to wake up my idea. it's time to bankai again. just like the previous time. there's no holding back. i won't think of the possible consequences. its dangerous. but i have to do it. for my career, for my future. i have to do it.
Lord, please give me the wisdom and the strength to carry on. remind me that i'm not doing this only for myself, but also for my buddy. remind me again and again that i'm supposed to set a good example. make me stronger lord. amen.
i let a chance to achieve 2 cars with 50k less effort then previously go. i must have been stupid. i need to wake up my idea. it's time to bankai again. just like the previous time. there's no holding back. i won't think of the possible consequences. its dangerous. but i have to do it. for my career, for my future. i have to do it.
Lord, please give me the wisdom and the strength to carry on. remind me that i'm not doing this only for myself, but also for my buddy. remind me again and again that i'm supposed to set a good example. make me stronger lord. amen.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Its true afterall...
"unhealthy is rite...EEeee is rite..."
i know, i know...all the better to get away from me...
oh well...destiny has spoken i guess?
i know, i know...all the better to get away from me...
oh well...destiny has spoken i guess?
Monday, April 16, 2007
对不起...
我看我是真的爱上了你....
实在抱歉.
此事非我之意. 我也是自身难保啊!
天啊救救我吧!!!!
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all I wanna do is grow old with you.
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice growing old with you.
I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
Need you, feed you, even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh, I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you.
dedicated to you.
实在抱歉.
此事非我之意. 我也是自身难保啊!
天啊救救我吧!!!!
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all I wanna do is grow old with you.
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice growing old with you.
I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
Need you, feed you, even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh, I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you.
dedicated to you.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
To: a Special friend...
"Are you thinking what i'm thinking B1?"
"i think i am B2. i love you too."
then again, maybe not.
it's amazing how someone can feel so special to you. so much so that you call that someone a 'special friend'. no. not a good friend or a buddy. but, a "special friend".
a friend whom you are afraid to love. yet you feel yourself falling into the depth of love itself. a friend so special that you know you won't be able to live on without her presence. yet, you know if the two of you were to be trapped in the same room, both of you would most probably end up killing each other. a friend so special that you actually share the same frequency. something so delicate, so private, so intimate. its the kind of feeling where you understands that there is at least another human out there who shares the same sentiments as you over a certain issue. someone whom you know you can depend on for a listening ear, a positive feedback and truthful advices though it may sting a bit. a friend whom you'd pray stay single forever and be that special friend to you forever. a special friend whom you can selfishly call your own. a special friend who share the same love as you. a special friend who shares the same views on traditions, politics and even on drama. a special friend who is not ashame of being herself and is loved for being uniquely her. a special friend who also has a big and noble dream and ambition. a special friend who stole your first kiss and selfishly took a special portion of your heart as her own.
but i know, i will never be that true love you speak of. nor will i be that prince charming that you dream of. i am not the guy your heart longs for neither am i that special to you.
but sharing the same frequency alone makes me feel special. from a special friend to another special friend.
i love you. past, present and forever. a special friend who took a special part in my heart and my memory.
"i think i am B2. i love you too."
then again, maybe not.
it's amazing how someone can feel so special to you. so much so that you call that someone a 'special friend'. no. not a good friend or a buddy. but, a "special friend".
a friend whom you are afraid to love. yet you feel yourself falling into the depth of love itself. a friend so special that you know you won't be able to live on without her presence. yet, you know if the two of you were to be trapped in the same room, both of you would most probably end up killing each other. a friend so special that you actually share the same frequency. something so delicate, so private, so intimate. its the kind of feeling where you understands that there is at least another human out there who shares the same sentiments as you over a certain issue. someone whom you know you can depend on for a listening ear, a positive feedback and truthful advices though it may sting a bit. a friend whom you'd pray stay single forever and be that special friend to you forever. a special friend whom you can selfishly call your own. a special friend who share the same love as you. a special friend who shares the same views on traditions, politics and even on drama. a special friend who is not ashame of being herself and is loved for being uniquely her. a special friend who also has a big and noble dream and ambition. a special friend who stole your first kiss and selfishly took a special portion of your heart as her own.
but i know, i will never be that true love you speak of. nor will i be that prince charming that you dream of. i am not the guy your heart longs for neither am i that special to you.
but sharing the same frequency alone makes me feel special. from a special friend to another special friend.
i love you. past, present and forever. a special friend who took a special part in my heart and my memory.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
STOP DREAMING! BE PRACTICAL!
ever heard of this phrase? i wonder how can anyone say such sinful words. being practical is right...but stop dreaming? huh?!
i hate it especially when people tell me to be practical and to stop dreaming. freak! what will i become without my dreams? how can a person live without a dream? normally it's people who have long given up on dreaming, people who dare not dream anymore...for fear of what they have missed...or what they have forsaken.
it's scary to live without a dream. a person without a dream is like a person without a soul. a walking zombie to be exact...
to me, my dreams give me hope. gives me the strength to carry on with life, which would have been meaningless otherwise. now, i still dare to dream it big. the sky's the limit and there's nothing to lose if i were to venture into anything! imagine me at age 40...i don't think i'll dare to dream of anything at all. haha
have no fear! start dreaming! dreams can be fulfilled if you really want it to happen. i believe that why i am.
and to the being practical part...i don't understand how can anyone think that banging on a single scholarship which has almost 500 other applicants which similarly good results be practical and a "sure to survive" mean to clinch a bond which makes an iron rice bowl. and i hardly can imagine what earning a measly 2-3k per month can do to a person's quality of life. and how practical can it be to study for more then half your life and then realizing that the economy has no need for people who has specialize in your field, and course you graduated with a masters you are over-qualified for most of the jobs that u can apply for. how practical is that? especially when you graduate at age 25 and has plans to get married by 28, without enough money to even support you parents. now, where do you think the money for the banquet will come from other then the parents who eagerly wanna be promoted to become grandparents. of cos you may say, "no fear! i can afford to wait for a few more years to save up." please don't talk cock. you can wait. but can the lady wait for long?
i don't know what's wrong with the society. though i'm sure not everyone is cut out for biz, i also believe that we should not be without any ambition. when we were kids, he practically have no fear! what has happened to us? what did society do to us? its scary to think that a majority of us youngsters have already been too deeply poisoned by the "worker's mentality" that we dare not venture out. and that earning 2k a month is "right" as its the norm. what the fish?
aren't these the people who are thinking that leading a "normal" and "peaceful" life will make them happy. and don't give me that shit about "you earn so much den you not happy also no use what". earning a measly income doesn't mean you'll be happy! and i know of people who earn alot and are happy and people who earn peanuts and are upset everyday. so who decides what? definitely money is innocent! it the people who creates the environment and in this case, the happy family. so wake up and smell the flowers dude! stop self-neutralizing with all you "u like tt also will like this what" shit! that's living in self denial! "de nile is not just a river in Egypt ya noe?"
be a "possible thinker" and not an "impossible-thinker"! of course it's easier to think of problems. but in order to succeed we need to solutions! and if we look deeper, to every problem there is at least one solution.
i hate it especially when people tell me to be practical and to stop dreaming. freak! what will i become without my dreams? how can a person live without a dream? normally it's people who have long given up on dreaming, people who dare not dream anymore...for fear of what they have missed...or what they have forsaken.
it's scary to live without a dream. a person without a dream is like a person without a soul. a walking zombie to be exact...
to me, my dreams give me hope. gives me the strength to carry on with life, which would have been meaningless otherwise. now, i still dare to dream it big. the sky's the limit and there's nothing to lose if i were to venture into anything! imagine me at age 40...i don't think i'll dare to dream of anything at all. haha
have no fear! start dreaming! dreams can be fulfilled if you really want it to happen. i believe that why i am.
and to the being practical part...i don't understand how can anyone think that banging on a single scholarship which has almost 500 other applicants which similarly good results be practical and a "sure to survive" mean to clinch a bond which makes an iron rice bowl. and i hardly can imagine what earning a measly 2-3k per month can do to a person's quality of life. and how practical can it be to study for more then half your life and then realizing that the economy has no need for people who has specialize in your field, and course you graduated with a masters you are over-qualified for most of the jobs that u can apply for. how practical is that? especially when you graduate at age 25 and has plans to get married by 28, without enough money to even support you parents. now, where do you think the money for the banquet will come from other then the parents who eagerly wanna be promoted to become grandparents. of cos you may say, "no fear! i can afford to wait for a few more years to save up." please don't talk cock. you can wait. but can the lady wait for long?
i don't know what's wrong with the society. though i'm sure not everyone is cut out for biz, i also believe that we should not be without any ambition. when we were kids, he practically have no fear! what has happened to us? what did society do to us? its scary to think that a majority of us youngsters have already been too deeply poisoned by the "worker's mentality" that we dare not venture out. and that earning 2k a month is "right" as its the norm. what the fish?
aren't these the people who are thinking that leading a "normal" and "peaceful" life will make them happy. and don't give me that shit about "you earn so much den you not happy also no use what". earning a measly income doesn't mean you'll be happy! and i know of people who earn alot and are happy and people who earn peanuts and are upset everyday. so who decides what? definitely money is innocent! it the people who creates the environment and in this case, the happy family. so wake up and smell the flowers dude! stop self-neutralizing with all you "u like tt also will like this what" shit! that's living in self denial! "de nile is not just a river in Egypt ya noe?"
be a "possible thinker" and not an "impossible-thinker"! of course it's easier to think of problems. but in order to succeed we need to solutions! and if we look deeper, to every problem there is at least one solution.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
我的温柔
温柔五月天
走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔像你抱著我
然后发现你的改变孤单的今后
如果冷该怎么渡过
天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你
不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由
music
自由这是我的温柔
走在风中今天阳光突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔像你抱著我
然后发现你的改变孤单的今后
如果冷该怎么渡过
天边风光身边的我都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏著什么我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
不打扰是我的温柔
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你
不知不觉不情不愿又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由
music
自由这是我的温柔
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Perhaps. Love.
is it cos of the past?
that i still think of you?
is it cos of the past?
that my love still lingers?
is it cos of the past?
that i still dream of you?
is it cos of the past?
that i think of you?
is it cos of the past?
that i don't dare to love you?
is it cos of the past?
that i think i love you?
is it cos of the past?
that i can only hold you in my dreams?
is it cos of the past?
that i feel having you in my life will make me whole?
is it cos of the past?
that i dare not hold high hopes?
is it cos of the past?
that i think it can actually work out?
is it cos of the past?
that there might be a future?
is it cos of the past?
that i still long for you?
yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery. today is a gift. that's why we call it the "present".
i thank God for today, for i know, today you belong in my heart. i don't know what the future holds. but i thank God for today.
one day, we might work it out. one day things might be what i dreamt it to be. one day...
i dream. i dream of a paradise with you. tonight i await your arrival at lala land. hope you're awaiting mine too.
i long for tonight. for dreams hold hopes. it might not be for real. but it can be real enough to feel bliss. 'dream on,' they say. but i believe dreams do come true. one day, it might.
give us another chance. and it'll be the last chance we'll ever need. now, we'll take things slow and steady. one day, dreams might be true.
be not afraid to love for love is innocent.
it is unselfish and unconditional.
love should never be feared.
in love there is no fear.
i promise i'd never leave, though we know not the future.
but if we don't make it happen, the future will never happen.
the joy of challenge is to do things that others think you cannot achieve.
challenge yourself. challenge me.
challenge my love.
take a chance on me.
one last chance.
not now perhaps.
but i can wait.
for that day where you are ready
to accept me once again.
if i have to give a limit to my love
i'd say "one lifetime"
let's start again.
this time, it'll never have an end.
i promise.
that i still think of you?
is it cos of the past?
that my love still lingers?
is it cos of the past?
that i still dream of you?
is it cos of the past?
that i think of you?
is it cos of the past?
that i don't dare to love you?
is it cos of the past?
that i think i love you?
is it cos of the past?
that i can only hold you in my dreams?
is it cos of the past?
that i feel having you in my life will make me whole?
is it cos of the past?
that i dare not hold high hopes?
is it cos of the past?
that i think it can actually work out?
is it cos of the past?
that there might be a future?
is it cos of the past?
that i still long for you?
yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery. today is a gift. that's why we call it the "present".
i thank God for today, for i know, today you belong in my heart. i don't know what the future holds. but i thank God for today.
one day, we might work it out. one day things might be what i dreamt it to be. one day...
i dream. i dream of a paradise with you. tonight i await your arrival at lala land. hope you're awaiting mine too.
i long for tonight. for dreams hold hopes. it might not be for real. but it can be real enough to feel bliss. 'dream on,' they say. but i believe dreams do come true. one day, it might.
give us another chance. and it'll be the last chance we'll ever need. now, we'll take things slow and steady. one day, dreams might be true.
be not afraid to love for love is innocent.
it is unselfish and unconditional.
love should never be feared.
in love there is no fear.
i promise i'd never leave, though we know not the future.
but if we don't make it happen, the future will never happen.
the joy of challenge is to do things that others think you cannot achieve.
challenge yourself. challenge me.
challenge my love.
take a chance on me.
one last chance.
not now perhaps.
but i can wait.
for that day where you are ready
to accept me once again.
if i have to give a limit to my love
i'd say "one lifetime"
let's start again.
this time, it'll never have an end.
i promise.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
NO WAY!!
i am NOT gonna lose to a bunch of old aunties in their 40s! i'm sure they have got good products and all that jazz. but i've got the BEST! so don't come telling me how good yours is when i have obviously drawn the clear line.
but of course...it does feel good to be acknowledge as a talent and someone everyone so want to recruit, doesn't it? haha
damn...having a gastric attack now. freak! i should have just went to have my dinner when i was waiting to try out the product.
good thing i went today. it made me more determine then ever to do well, no to do better! "and they say that a hero will save us..." i will be that hero!
just wait, and, see...
but of course...it does feel good to be acknowledge as a talent and someone everyone so want to recruit, doesn't it? haha
damn...having a gastric attack now. freak! i should have just went to have my dinner when i was waiting to try out the product.
good thing i went today. it made me more determine then ever to do well, no to do better! "and they say that a hero will save us..." i will be that hero!
just wait, and, see...
Friday, March 23, 2007
All abt us...
今天可说是个很有感觉的一天.
这么说呢? 不知从何说起,但就是觉得自己在今天下来成长了很多很多.
突然觉得自己很寂寞.平时大家眼里好友满天下的勇安也有他寂寞的时候.其实我并不孤独. 我知道我身旁有狠多的朋友,但他人对于我和我的行业的误解让我不尽为人世间的冷酷无情而打寒痉.
不我们不是冷酷无情的一群.在这里,我只认为我们是少数真正懂得用心的人.在这里我找到知己好友.我学到"真".我学到忠,孝,仁,爱,礼,意,廉,耻.我找到了真正关心我的家人,我找到了我的兄弟姐妹们.
我们都是有理想,有抱负,有孝心的一群.我们是真的用了心,只等着你们的接受.
走的走,留的留.唯有真正了解成功的真谛的才不愿放弃.成功,毕竟不是为了自己.成功是一种感觉.只要达成目标才会有的感觉.
这么说呢? 不知从何说起,但就是觉得自己在今天下来成长了很多很多.
突然觉得自己很寂寞.平时大家眼里好友满天下的勇安也有他寂寞的时候.其实我并不孤独. 我知道我身旁有狠多的朋友,但他人对于我和我的行业的误解让我不尽为人世间的冷酷无情而打寒痉.
不我们不是冷酷无情的一群.在这里,我只认为我们是少数真正懂得用心的人.在这里我找到知己好友.我学到"真".我学到忠,孝,仁,爱,礼,意,廉,耻.我找到了真正关心我的家人,我找到了我的兄弟姐妹们.
我们都是有理想,有抱负,有孝心的一群.我们是真的用了心,只等着你们的接受.
走的走,留的留.唯有真正了解成功的真谛的才不愿放弃.成功,毕竟不是为了自己.成功是一种感觉.只要达成目标才会有的感觉.
有梦最美希望相随.
大海若无暗礁,
哪能激起美丽浪花?
人生若无挫折,
哪能写下辉煌一页?
我们有梦.我们不是虞忠.我们摒着信心.总有一天梦想会成真!
我们敢梦...你呢?你的梦想有是什么?
来吧!勇敢的做梦!但要美梦成真也得付出代价.
我要做到问心无愧,只会流汗,不会流泪.只要做得对不管有没有人陪.
大海若无暗礁,
哪能激起美丽浪花?
人生若无挫折,
哪能写下辉煌一页?
我们有梦.我们不是虞忠.我们摒着信心.总有一天梦想会成真!
我们敢梦...你呢?你的梦想有是什么?
来吧!勇敢的做梦!但要美梦成真也得付出代价.
我要做到问心无愧,只会流汗,不会流泪.只要做得对不管有没有人陪.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Sunday, March 18, 2007
ambitions...
i used to have a dream. to b a "nice guy" because i thought it's not easy being one. most importantly, it was impossible for me to be one. up till now, only one friend told me i did it, but i end up hurting him/her/it in the end. what joke.
sometimes i ask myself: am i really happy? i joke, i laugh. but what is that loneliness i feel in me? the absense of a particular "something" to fill up that hollow in me. but i have faith. one day, just one day in the future, that "something" will appear and take "it's" rightful throne.
"i'll have an appointment with you in future. and i'll make sure this time, it's happily ever after. for you and me."
sometimes i ask myself: am i really happy? i joke, i laugh. but what is that loneliness i feel in me? the absense of a particular "something" to fill up that hollow in me. but i have faith. one day, just one day in the future, that "something" will appear and take "it's" rightful throne.
"i'll have an appointment with you in future. and i'll make sure this time, it's happily ever after. for you and me."
***
sometimes i wonder to myslf: what is it with people and working till you're 65? it's not illegal to retire early right? but why is it that people make it sound like a sin to want to retire at 35?? retiring does not equate to "rotting your life away", neither does it mean "leading a meaningless life" after that. does anyone actually know how much we are missing out by not retiring early? i have a belief: there is unlimited money to be earned in this world. no one tells you how much you should stop at. but please do look at the more important aspects in life! what happened to "growing up with your kids"? and "spending quality time with you loved ones (wife, kids and parents included)"? i'm super sure a person's worth is not measured by "how long he can work", that's like so workers' mentality. don't believe me? let's do a simple calculation and determine how much is actuallie "enough" to last you whole life shall we?
let's take the average income of a normal person throughout his life to be $3k (note: it states AVERAGE)
so if we work from 25-65, that's 40 years.
so let's see... 3k x 12 (mths) x 40 (yrs) = 1440k which is $1.44million! cool right? everyone can be a millionaire. but of course some say "but we still spend on other stuffs like car, house, food, diapers...." whatever lah hor....thats the average your parents earn and they are still surviving so don't argue (though they may be struggling)!
so if that's the case, why not shorten that time span?? y should you earn tt 1 million in 40 yrs ir you can shorten it to let's say...10 yrs?? but of course if you're thinking of just working for some MNCs as some admin clerk. then this is not for you.
"but great anzai! how can everyone accomplish this? having everyone retiring at 35...then our economy how?!!!"
fret not, your uncle here got the answer,"if you really care so much about the workforce in future to think about retiring early, be a worker for 40 years. maybe your guilty conscious won't kill you, yea?"
whoever told you that retiring means you can't contribute to the economy? what happened to investments and "spending money to keep the economy rolling"? and no, uncle here didn't say "retire" and waste tax payers' money. but you'll never know if you need tax payers' to support you in future but let's just look at factors that are in our control shall we? acts of God...leave it to Him!
interested you may approach me and ask me to share how i'd actually accomplish this dream of mine. but i do warn that not everyone can accept my ideas. and no, the fact is that you don't have to be a uni-grad to make it in what i want to do.
i'm not sure if i can accomplish what i want, but the thing is, that is what i want. many people don't even dare to want anything anymore.
of course, before bill gates became the richest man on earth, he didn't know that he can do it. but one thing's for sure. he wanted to be rich and powerful, that's why he got to where he is. succes doesn't fall on you suddenly like bird shit and says, "peek-a-boo! you're successful!"
let's take the average income of a normal person throughout his life to be $3k (note: it states AVERAGE)
so if we work from 25-65, that's 40 years.
so let's see... 3k x 12 (mths) x 40 (yrs) = 1440k which is $1.44million! cool right? everyone can be a millionaire. but of course some say "but we still spend on other stuffs like car, house, food, diapers...." whatever lah hor....thats the average your parents earn and they are still surviving so don't argue (though they may be struggling)!
so if that's the case, why not shorten that time span?? y should you earn tt 1 million in 40 yrs ir you can shorten it to let's say...10 yrs?? but of course if you're thinking of just working for some MNCs as some admin clerk. then this is not for you.
"but great anzai! how can everyone accomplish this? having everyone retiring at 35...then our economy how?!!!"
fret not, your uncle here got the answer,"if you really care so much about the workforce in future to think about retiring early, be a worker for 40 years. maybe your guilty conscious won't kill you, yea?"
whoever told you that retiring means you can't contribute to the economy? what happened to investments and "spending money to keep the economy rolling"? and no, uncle here didn't say "retire" and waste tax payers' money. but you'll never know if you need tax payers' to support you in future but let's just look at factors that are in our control shall we? acts of God...leave it to Him!
interested you may approach me and ask me to share how i'd actually accomplish this dream of mine. but i do warn that not everyone can accept my ideas. and no, the fact is that you don't have to be a uni-grad to make it in what i want to do.
i'm not sure if i can accomplish what i want, but the thing is, that is what i want. many people don't even dare to want anything anymore.
of course, before bill gates became the richest man on earth, he didn't know that he can do it. but one thing's for sure. he wanted to be rich and powerful, that's why he got to where he is. succes doesn't fall on you suddenly like bird shit and says, "peek-a-boo! you're successful!"
Sunday, March 11, 2007
InSpIrAtIoNaL...
sometimes we complain about how dull life is...seems like it's up to us to spice it up...
next time you have an exam question you can't answer, be creative!
seems like my "inspiration" to write died-ed on me...sucks...
seems like my "inspiration" to write died-ed on me...sucks...
Saturday, March 10, 2007
他和她的故事(二)
时间到了. 他把埋在功课里的头抬起. 放眼望去,她这时从实验室出来.
他早已把她的时间表铭记于心.什么时候放课,什么时候休息,他都很清楚.也因为他的课程与其他人不同所以有许多时间都是一个人独来独往.他就特别喜欢这种时候. 因为没有人可以打扰他从远方欣赏她的美.
这天是她的生日.他画了一张生日卡片给她,但不知如何送出去.
握着卡片,他站在远方望着她, 默默的说:"祝你生日快乐..."
也许有一天她会了解他的心意.他是那么坚信着.也许会有一天.
他早已把她的时间表铭记于心.什么时候放课,什么时候休息,他都很清楚.也因为他的课程与其他人不同所以有许多时间都是一个人独来独往.他就特别喜欢这种时候. 因为没有人可以打扰他从远方欣赏她的美.
这天是她的生日.他画了一张生日卡片给她,但不知如何送出去.
握着卡片,他站在远方望着她, 默默的说:"祝你生日快乐..."
也许有一天她会了解他的心意.他是那么坚信着.也许会有一天.
(二)完
祝你生日快乐!!!
祝你生日快乐!!!
Friday, March 9, 2007
FrEaK!
i'm pretty sure my "chinese star" programme knows when i'm gonna type in chinese and when not. it just pang seh-ed me again! yes! AGAIN! sianz...fret not loyal readers! i will get it fixed...somehow.
there's been alot of deal for the up and coming game show "deal or no deal", well, at least in my company it is. lotsa people have actually signed up for the 250K gameshow! woah! that's alot of money! can u imagine what you can do with that amount of money??
take over the world! eh...don't think so...
take over asia! eh...don't think can also...
take over singapore!! eh...think it's impossible...
damn! you can't do anything with ONLY 250K! haha ok that's lame. let's get back to business.
with 250K, i'd most prob give 100K to my parents for taking all my nonsense and so they can pay my uni school fees (hee!). use 100K to invest in property in China (like buy a few houses and rent them out). and use the remaining 50K to invest in my own business. seems like 250K really not enough...
so when i win my 250K i'd learn how to make my money work for me in investments! whoo! den i'll make my first bucket of gold and invest it back to earn my second, third and fourth buckets of gold! (gold meaning a million yeah?) upon which i'll proceed to become singapore's youngest multi-millionaire! hahaha. whatever lah hor? i haven't even fill up the application forms! and there's an audition to pass too! oh well...stop dreaming and start working!
250K here i come!!!!
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