Sunday, December 30, 2007

我自己。。。

突然有个想法。。。

如果我是女生,而爱上我的是‘勇安’(既是本人也)。
我会有什么想法。。。

我会很害怕。

: )

Saturday, December 29, 2007

如果。。。

如果能从新度过第一学期,
我一定做你的男友。
能再度过第一学期吗?不能。。。
所以很遗憾的,我不是你的男友。

如果我能瞬间移动,
我一定会到天涯海角陪伴着你。
我能瞬间移动吗?不能。。。
所以我无法到天涯海角陪伴着你。

如果把杯子里的水倒,
出也浇不灭我对你爱的火把。
杯子里的水倒的出吗?能。。。
所以。。。
是的。。。
我爱你。

:)

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas!

我真的真的
很想开心。。。
为何
笑也那么累?

有个朋友说
有时女生要喜欢自己的男生向她们表白
好让自己有机会拒绝他
让自己不那么辛苦。

这点我也知道
但叫我这么快就送上去让你
打我一巴掌
我不甘心
要打的话。。。
你自己过来好了
我一定让你打

只要你问我
我一定老实说:
“是的,我喜欢的就是你。”
但我真的真的
不渴望
任何的
答案

不用对我说
你只当我是
普通朋友
不要说
我早就知道的
事实

如果
这是
事实
我只要你
继续
当我是
普通朋友
我就
心满意足了

真的。。。
答应我
好吗?

对不起
不小心
喜欢你

但喜欢你让我有机会感觉
幸福。
谢谢你。

: )

Sunday, December 23, 2007

:)

你的出现
让我的音乐有了意义。
千言万语
也无法表达我心中的喜悦。

谢谢。。。
你的出现
对不起。。。
隐瞒了我对你的感觉。

: )

ps:‘对不起’和‘谢谢’是可以同时用的。

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Close to you...

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.

真的很喜欢这首歌。唱着它就会想到她。

很想接近她,接近她的心灵。想更了解她。。。

你。。。原意吗?

:)

Friday, December 14, 2007

我喜欢的。。。

我喜欢的
是你说对不起的样子
我喜欢的
是你对我道谢的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我欢笑的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我担忧的样子
我喜欢的
是你坚持己见的样子
我喜欢的
是你开心欢笑的样子
我喜欢的
是你不知所措的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我心痛的样子
我喜欢的
是你让我妒忌的样子
我喜欢的
是你的一切一切
你的热情
你的冷落
你的今天
你的昨天
你的明天
我喜欢的
是你
是你
是你。。。

看了朋友给我的漫画。读到了一个女生在垂死挣扎中对自己深爱多年的好友示爱,道出了自己为男生做出的一切一切。。。她的付出、她的痛、她的感觉我都能体会。想爱却不敢爱、想说但不敢说的矛盾心理让人很挣扎,很烦恼。有时真的想说不管三七二十一,豁出去,拼了命,说就说!但害怕的是后果。。。没胆量面对后果,没信心接受结局。有时还得想想。。。说了又怎么样?我不愿意再伤害另一个人。。。这世界已经很悲哀了,不能让给多一个人因感情之事而烦恼。

有人说说爱是自私的。但我就是不能让自己自私。。。也许就这样默默地喜欢一个人更加幸福吧。有个朋友曾经说过:“能够默默地喜欢一个人也是一种幸福的事。至少不会受伤害。”

好不容易平息的心玄又莫名的被拨动。突然觉得自己很emo哈哈。。。

p.s: 天使,要加油喔!我相信你行的!

:)

心。晴

这几天住在宿舍,天不作美都是倾盆大雨。还好有活动、有朋友、有。。。你。让我的生活有所盼望。希望能够有机会和你单独聊天到三更却担心你会想念你的朋友。我不奢望自己能在你心中占据任何特别的位子。。。也许根本就没有什么位子好占据。

有人问我为什么会喜欢你。。。突然我不知如何对应。对你的感觉真的无法解释。

其实我真的真的很希望可以在表演当天看到你,因为我想为你吹奏,想让你一睹我的风采。。。很想成为你的‘英雄’。

我知道你对任何人都一样好,甚至对某些人更加的好。。。我知道对我友善并不代表什么所以我也不带有任何的幻想。

谢谢你让我知道什么是‘只要开心就好’,只要你开心我就开心。因为要你开心所以让你往更幸福的地方去。

:)

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

meaningful post

the following was taken from a friend's blog. heard of the story before and it inspired me.

may the same story inspire you too.

: )
A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to makeit and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil.

In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil,without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me, what do you see?"

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughtersmiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked, "What doesit mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter.

"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which one are you? Are you like the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do you wilt and become soft and lose strength? Are you like the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with theheat? Did you have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have you become hardened and stiff? Does your shell look the same, but on the inside, are you bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or are you like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water,the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level?How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

"It's easier to build a child than repair an adult."

Hope you all like this. i know i did. : )

Monday, December 10, 2007

号外!号外!

yours truly will be having a concert on the 23rd of dec!
for those who don't know, it's actually a band concert (as in concert band, symphonic band that kinda band...not those rock bands....i know i v zai but still i can't play the guitar haha).

it will be at nafa auditorium (u noe la tt new building? the one jus next to burglinton square? near simlin one la! u noe rite? ya tt 1...) at 5pm...

we will be playing some christmasy pieces like 'white christmas' and 'christmas carol fantasy' etc....and familiar pieces like 'mary poppins', 'moulin rougue' etc and not forgetting the all-time favourites 'PHANTOM OF THE OPERA'!

tickets are on sales now! all at an affordable rate of 10dollar ONLY! what are you waiting for?! grab one today while stocks last! you may approach any of our ksws members for the tickets! (like if u think u onli noe yong an den ya...get it frm him la! so easy rite? still nid me to teach u meh?).

P.S: for every 7 tix bought there will b a complimentart tix given! such a gd bargain! imagine this...8tix at 10bucks each but now onli at 70bucks!!! u save up to 10bucks fer a splendid concert! everyone still can get a rebate of er....$1.25!!! wah! still waiting fer what?! quick! all our tix are running out...i mean finishing la they dun haf legs but u noe wad i mean ya? haha

Friday, December 7, 2007

幸福是。。。

几天前写的东东。。。差点儿忘了post上来。

:)

幸福是
在大热天吃着红豆冰
幸福是
在红豆冰内找到attap chee
幸福是
在吃饭时发出问候的短讯
幸福是
问候的短讯的到回应
幸福是
知道爱一个人不是占有
幸福是
在红豆冰找到第二粒attap chee
幸福是
知道另一个人的幸福是什么
幸福是
能够给另一个人幸福
幸福就是。。。


:)

Thursday, December 6, 2007

绕脑三日

听过“绕梁三日”没想到一句话竟能绕我脑三日。

“有上进心、做任何事都对得起良心。。。”
我是这种人吗?

其实当天我也在想。。。我心仪的对象是怎么样的?
很奇怪吧?原来勇安不知道他喜欢怎么样的女性。

哈哈总觉得可爱的女生是我的致命伤。但可爱归可爱,还得具备其他的特征才能让我心动。
1)有上进心
2)保守
3)谦虚
4)有才华
5)懂得欣赏音乐
6)懂得欣赏艺术
7)独立
8)有自己的社交圈子
应该就只有这些吧。。。

老实说进得了厨房,出得了厅堂的女性也让我心动。

你是这样的人吗?

: )

Monday, December 3, 2007

我爱的人.陈小春

我知道故事不会太曲折 我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生 成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择 我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人 谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 她或他说“我们”
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

**********
不知道为什么听到这首歌。
特别有感觉。
我爱的人,不知道她爱着谁。
但也许是人本性犯贱,总爱往坏的方面想。

其实我很钦佩敢爱敢恨的人。
他们勇于表达不一定会有结果的感情。
现在的我已没有这种勇气了。
也许觉得自己"玩不起"了,
累了不想玩了。
人总得定下心来吧。
但感情却又不是数学式,1+1=2那么简单。

喜欢的感觉却是从很简单的方式产生的。
一个回眸一笑,
一个无意的问候都可以是导火线。
但爱就是那么的奇妙。
命运也爱弄人。
你喜欢的不一定喜欢你。
喜欢你的又不一定是你的菜。
真可笑。
你想接近的人想远离你,
远离世俗的烦恼而“归隐”。

人生可以不可以简简单单?
爱可以不可以向小时候那么简单?
"i like you, want steady or not?"
多爽快。
长大后的我们
越来越没有冒险精神了。

"no balls?"

haha....looks like it man...

ps:其实我知道你有读我的部落格。

: )

simple life?

ever heard of a simple life?
i'm looking fer it

a heck care attitude, telling people that, i don't really give a shit.
will it really take all my problems away?

i'm sad. but i don't know why.
sadness is contagious and i willingly got infected.

i have a lot to rants.
i have a lot to say but words seem to be a handicap to my feelings.
do you know how much i care?
do you even know what i'm feeling when i stare at the screen and know not what to say?
i have so much to share.
so much to tell.
i want to tell you the past, the present and the future.
i want to share your life.
i want to be part of it,
a major part.

i'm giving myself time.
buying myself some time to know you.
to let you know me.

to know that you can count on me.

that when the day seems dark and hope is gone, i'm still here.
that when the sky crumbles i'll be there to hold it with you.
i will not hold the sky for you
for i know you'll b holding it too.
you are strong,
i know.
you are my superwoman
my source of energy.

no...don't tell me to give up now.
that's not how it's supposed to be.
where there's nothing
there's nothing to give up.

blessed is one who finds love.
happiness fills one
who's love is reciprocated.
i know i am blessed.
happiness is a bonus.
i've long forgotten what true happiness mean.

i'll be here waiting,
like i promised.
and i have promised too,
that i'll b simple
especially with you.

this world is complicated as it it.
we should not make it worse.

but promise me
that when i see you next
you'll be truly happy
from the bottom of you heart
cause when you are,
i am too.

: )