WonDeRs...

i've been wondering for some time now. what's is infactuation? what is love? what is like? what's the difference? who sets them? and how do u know what is it that you feel?

how long does it take to be infactuated with someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second of meeting...

how long does it take to like someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall liking is a feeling. a kind of chemistry that somehow fitted nicely.

how long does it take to love someone? i suppose it can happen within the first second? afterall there's such a thing call love at first-sight. and sight happens in an instance.

so time is not a very good measurement of the above three. damn...

so what now?

do you believe in love at first sight? i do....

how about love at second sight? that's a tricky one...i suppose so?

basically i'm a believer of love...like finally again? (as what some of my friends would say) haha...

let me tell you a story about a boy (its short)...
one day, at a crowded place, he met her. never in his life has he ever felt that someone could b so familiar. its like they haf met before. but he couldn't be sure. not even now.

they boarded the same bus. he knows they are heading to the same place. and he thought he saw the girl look back, as if she has seen him before. then again, it might just be his imagination.

for starters, he has never went up to a girl and ask for her name before. he didn't know what gave him the will and power to do so at that time. he went up to her and introduced himself, asking for her name. after that he can't stop looking at her. its as if she's the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. for a very long time he has never felt like this. but he knew that it couldn't mean anything. can it?

he tried to get to know the girl more after that day. it's insane how he couldn't keep her out of his mind. it's like he's going crazy. and he thought, "i must be girl-crazy'. but what is this thing that's pulling his attention to her all the time?

"is she looking over? is she looking over?" wild thoughts ran through his mind. then again, couldn't it just be a simple infactuation? if it were then he will get over it.

"Lord if this is not meant to be, give me a sign. i'd rather face the music now then suffer in turmoil. let it come fast. let Your will be done. amen." and thus was the prayer.

soon girl started to avoid his advances. he doesn't know what went wrong. 'take it slow' were what friends tell him. 'don't scare her' others say. deep inside he is clear. perhaps this is it?

ok...let's just stop here. the story hasn't end yet. maybe there's no need for a conclusion or an ending. but at least it had a beautiful beginning. at least to him, it is.

thanks for the wonderful moments. i never thought i could love again.