需要吗？

最近和一位朋友谈到了一个恰恰是我一直在深思的问题：

男人需要女人吗？（因为我是男人的缘故所以是以这方面的思考方式。女性者可把角色交换来思考）

但是这位朋友比较直接：“男人不结婚那最原始的需要怎么解决？”

原来男人需要女人的缘故也有非常身理上的理由。那么仔细思考一番。。。这么一来人都在一定程度上是肤浅的。但是这等行为在心理上的影响也非常的严重。。。那它还是‘肤浅’的吗？

男人需要女人。至少对我是相信这一点的。不只是身理的需要，也是心理的需要，更是生活的需要。

：）

博客

好友说：“安仔！我们从新再写blog！再一次inspire人们写blog！”

我想。。。也好。
但。。。我不是一直都有写吗？还是“写”是有某种频率的update才算是在“写”。
那么。。。我之前的post，是“写”了还是没有。若是后者，它们又是以什么形式产生的?

: )

The notebook

世上最美丽的东西应就是真爱。
爱是一切奇迹的推动力，只一切创造的源头。
我想能够爱是一件很美丽的事。
能够相爱更是一件难能可贵的奇迹。
两个完全不同的人竟能够相亲相爱，
并白头偕老真是超越了逻辑。

看着“the notebook”让我很emo，它让我想到了爱的美。
看着电影，我的泪是不断的落着。。。
我想到了以前勇于去爱的自己
想到了向往爱的自己
又想到了不敢爱的自己。

我虽常说到单身自由自在、无忧无虑
但也会向往爱情
只是自己已经不再相信真爱能够降临在我的身上

真爱
我相信
但是我也相信
我和它没有多大相遇的机会

：）

lowest life form

some friends are held higher then others, i guess, i must be the lowest life form of friends.

I'm disappointed. I woke up early to prepare the stuff i wanted to pass to you, thinking that you would most probably not appear. but i still woke up early to prepare the stuff.

I msged to ask when will you be free, thinking that you would most probably be too busy to meet me anyway. but i still msged to ask when will you be free.

God should stop letting you appear before me when I'm thinking of just ignoring you totally...like how i convinced myself to not msg u to ask when you'd be free, and you msged to ask when will i be free.

Somehow, our appointments are not as important ask last min arrangements. Oh well, some friends are just held above others. I really don't know where I stand.

What am I to you? Who am I?

: )

梦游。。。

昨天看了港剧“飞短流长父子兵”眼泪更是不断的在流。剧中对于亲情和爱情的描述刻画更是栩栩如生，演员的演技更是没得比，连我这个铁石心肠的男人都会败在他们的催泪弹下。

也许是这部剧的关系，晚上就梦到了一系列关于亲情的情节，现在记忆中还有依稀的印象。。。

首先是一个带着两个儿子在逃亡的母亲。大家在烈日当空，一望无际的马路上漫无目的的走着。当儿子累到无法在继续的时候，妈妈就成为先锋队向更远处奔去希望能够看到前面的希望。就当妈妈不留神的时候一辆卡车飞奔而驶，看这就向着妈妈的方向撞去！突然其中一个儿子扑了上来吧妈妈推到了一旁才险些没被撞着。妈妈愣了一下才醒过来转过身去很生气地骂了孩子：“你在干什么？不想活了吗？”

孩子只回答道："I know you care. But you can at least say 'thank you'."

之后的梦境就转到了另一个情景。。。但是因为记忆力不佳我也忘了到底是什么了。。。

我只记得最后的一幕是我抱着爷爷而爷爷脸上是非常的开心的笑着。他那肥润的脸颊还留着着他的招牌短胡须。。。还记得小时候爷爷会抓起我们的手往他的脸颊划过来逗我们。背着我的爷爷这是就说了一句：“对不起，我们很少爱你。”这时的我脸上带着笑容却流着眼泪。。。

我起来的那一刻，天下着倾盆大雨。我躺在床上望着窗外的雨境，眼泪从脸颊划落在湿润枕头。

突然很想念爷爷。。。

：）

我的爱。。。

我的爱像写上了地址却寄不出去的名信片。。。

When one finds a worthy wife, her value is far beyond pearls.
Her husband entrusting his heart to her, has an unfailing prize.
Proverbs 31:10-11

：）

broken heart

Remember the day you gave me this heart?
It was the most generous gift I've ever received
It made me realised how important the heart is to keep me alive
I understood the meaning of being alive

I know I've promised to keep it whole
To take good care of it
But judging from the way I've been
I think I've broken it a few times

Now, I'm so wary of breaking it
That I've forgotten how to give my heart to anyone
I don't know if I can ever love anymore

Love is such a confusing thing
They say love is giving
That I heeded and decided to keep my feelings to myself
For I cannot fanthom myself loving myself
Hence I don't think anyone will love me too

They say that you have to be selfish in love
That i heeded and decided to keep my feelings to myself
For I fear hurting myself
This precious heart of mine can take no more hurt

How can someone who knows not how to love, love?
Oh Father
Teach me to love again
To give my heart so freely
So generously

Teach me to mend this broken heart of mine
And
To love myself again

:)