simple life?

ever heard of a simple life?
i'm looking fer it

a heck care attitude, telling people that, i don't really give a shit.
will it really take all my problems away?

i'm sad. but i don't know why.
sadness is contagious and i willingly got infected.

i have a lot to rants.
i have a lot to say but words seem to be a handicap to my feelings.
do you know how much i care?
do you even know what i'm feeling when i stare at the screen and know not what to say?
i have so much to share.
so much to tell.
i want to tell you the past, the present and the future.
i want to share your life.
i want to be part of it,
a major part.

i'm giving myself time.
buying myself some time to know you.
to let you know me.

to know that you can count on me.

that when the day seems dark and hope is gone, i'm still here.
that when the sky crumbles i'll be there to hold it with you.
i will not hold the sky for you
for i know you'll b holding it too.
you are strong,
i know.
you are my superwoman
my source of energy.

no...don't tell me to give up now.
that's not how it's supposed to be.
where there's nothing
there's nothing to give up.

blessed is one who finds love.
happiness fills one
who's love is reciprocated.
i know i am blessed.
happiness is a bonus.
i've long forgotten what true happiness mean.

i'll be here waiting,
like i promised.
and i have promised too,
that i'll b simple
especially with you.

this world is complicated as it it.
we should not make it worse.

but promise me
that when i see you next
you'll be truly happy
from the bottom of you heart
cause when you are,
i am too.

: )