Weak...

i feel so weak! like i can hardly move a muscle...let alone move my brain.

i let a chance to achieve 2 cars with 50k less effort then previously go. i must have been stupid. i need to wake up my idea. it's time to bankai again. just like the previous time. there's no holding back. i won't think of the possible consequences. its dangerous. but i have to do it. for my career, for my future. i have to do it.

Lord, please give me the wisdom and the strength to carry on. remind me that i'm not doing this only for myself, but also for my buddy. remind me again and again that i'm supposed to set a good example. make me stronger lord. amen.